y0u aRe A stAR!

New Year 2012

2011-12-31T19:08:00.004+08:00

Dear Dairy,

Let's review on my 2011 since it's another one minute to 2012!!
My new year resolutions for 2011, and have i completed them?

- pass all modules and graduate from poly smoothly
(23 May 2011) YES!! Passed all and attended graduation ceremony.

- find a suitable job to earn $$!!
(7 March 2011) YES!! Found a job, but I'm still struggling with some issues faced. What I know is, I'm loving this job (:

- able to participate and committ to all activities i joined, the dance and the ensemble
(gone.) From the day u decided to walk off from my life, everything's gone.

- able to attend all my meetups with friends and attend bday parties of my friends
(half way thro) Attended for quite some meetups with cliques and PeiYee for Mac BF, and attended JieYing's 21st bday party with ZY.

- be a good girl
(hopefully) But I know I've break my mom's heart ever since I started work :P

- dote my skin
(half way thro) Yea, it's improving but still sucks.. More facial masks pls?? :))

- SLIM DOWN!! seriously need this
well, achieved during my last few months of FYP, but bounced back =____='''

Hmm.. To be frank, I'm not a good girl, anymore.

I love heels (:
I've broke my mom's heart and made her cry
I've devoted myself too much into work and didn't make time for family and friends
I've scolded vulgarities
I've tried cutting myself when I was really down with that incident
I've stayed out late till like around 3am in the morning
I've went to pub
I've drank alot this year, wine and beer
I've hugged two guys and was being kissed by another, and we are not bgf
I LOVE BEING A SLUT!! <3 and enjoy being one (:

I AM NO LONGER THE JOANNA U ALL KNOW!!~~ (:
So think carefully if u still want to be my friend. Maybe it's better not to know me at all~ (:

Well well, still have to set new year resolutions..
- dote my skin and body shape
- SLEEP MORE!!
- find back my passion for dancing and singing
- mom will be more open minded
- better performance in work, and to be appreciated by my bosses and colleagues
- let bygones be bygones, including him.
- pull myself up from my current depravation
- self control and limits

And should be like this bahh?

Hope 2012 will be a better and more exciting year (:
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012 TO ALL!! (:

Drinking Sessions

2011-12-10T16:35:00.007+08:00

Hi all,

Yea im surprised that some of my friends are still following my blog. Thanks all!! :D

Apologies, below will be ranting and ranting non-stop, and also some contents not suited for kids below 18.

So if u are not fitted for the criteria,

PLS KINDLY STOP HERE.

tyvm :))

Omfg, I can't finish my work!
And for those who are closer to me, they know that my work load is doubled. In fact, it's x4 my usual ones.

The papers are all piling up daily like shit and I just couldn't clear them off on time. Ppl are just throwing more and more papers on my limited desk happily, and when I really flip through them, I went: OMG, why is this thing here?

And the very moment I step into office, is either ppl will be there waiting for me to settle something, or my phone will keep ringing even before I got the chance to hit the on button on my CPU.
#Fml much.

Closing period is always the busiest time, and also all of us are the most afraid of period.
Finance have been chasing me for closing documents and I just reply them: Sorry I will give it to u tomorrow.

And chynas are all troublesome.
Have been spending quite some time to settle the PRC issues and I hate it especially when it clashes with my closing period.

Really don't have spare time to settle normal paper work.
Stressed.
How am I gonna survive when this is just the beginning of everything?!
Who understand that I REALLY CAN'T PRODUCE ANYMORE?
I'm drained seriously.

My boss kept asking if I am still able to manage, I just smile to them and reply:
"OK, I am survivng", or
"I am still trying", or
"Really can't cope already, but what to do? Work still have to be settled :)"

Recently tend to go pub-ing.
Went on wed and yesterday.

Drinking spells love! :D

And the staff there sort of became my friends?

Lemmi report on the happenings that 2 days :)

WEDNESDAY:

Boss brought a group of us to chill out in his pub.
Drank like 2 glasses that day.
Sang songs like 你的微笑, 你真么舍得我难过 and 黑色幽默.
Our finance girl is just too shy to sing. But her voice is nice too when she sang 没那么简单 :))

When we decided to leave the pub soon, a guy came to me and ask if he could have a song together with me.
OMG, some stranger can ask me to sing together!!
Of cos it will be rude to turn down someone who requested for a song together because it took up so much courage to request and also it silently meant that either he is looking for someone who shares the same interest as him, or he admire ur singing skills.
So the last song for the day is 今天你要嫁给我 with him.

He is good, seriously..

Sent our finance girl back home at Jurong first before heading back to our sweet home. Slept at 2.30am that day, and is like shit, 4 hours later must wake up for work!!

FRIDAY:

Had a committee meeting in the same pub, and HH after meeting.
Same thing, drinking, darting and singing.. :)
Challenged darts with both bosses and some colleagues.
Bull eyes!! and 20x3! :D happy happy~
真不愧有 personal darts :PpP

But of cos was punished with a glass of beer.
Asked one of my colleague to bottom that up for me :P hehehhees..

Played the 5, 10, 15, 20 games also.
Both bosses was fined with loads of beer.
I was fined with too, but twice only.
Heng ah~~

Of cos not forgetting to sing la.
We all anyhow choose songs for each other to sing and again 黑色幽默 for Eric because he promise me that song.

He is lousy with that can?! I laughed throughout his singing. HAHHA!! But can't blame because he didn't practise it before. :)

I sang quite some songs again, and when 你最珍贵 came, Eric just passed me the mic.
Okok, sing together yarhh?
:)

Left the pub at ard 9.00pm and actually decided to go for some dinner, but they ended up in Peninsular Hotel. Second round.
Wtf.
I WANT TO GO HOME!!

The second round.... Erm..
That place quite complicated. Is like got ladies accompany to drink and sing and dance..
And the portraits there is some naked female drawings.

Quite scary place to stay in as some males keep coming and accompany me, ask me to drink.
Had half a glass of red wine and I make noise about going home.

A male colleague sent me home and well since I reach home around 11.30pm, I assume that he will reach home around 12.30am?
Thanks for sending me home :))

And was hungry!! Because tummy full of beer and wine but just a little peanuts.
Actually wanna go supper with Eric, but was too tired.

Was happy because Eric was concerned bout me getting drunk, and this is something that he said which I was still happy until now:

<3

Well actually I love the atmosphere in the pub. As we gotta sing and listen to loads of music, and enjoy loads of laughters :)

Don't believe me?

OK, i love to drink ok? :)
I enjoy being touched by guys
And I love being a slut yarhh?
:)

I'm actually killing myself silently.

The pub.
A place where sweet memories of him are kept.
I sang his song.
And i even forced myself to remember him and face the fact.

Loves,
Jojo

Unnammed

2011-10-29T23:43:00.005+08:00

Last post - 27 Aug. WOW!! wonderful.

I guess most of you have forgotten this blog site, cos even I myself have forgotten that I actually hold a blog account. LOL.. Sorry Sorry!!

Seriously I feel the need to post this post thou am not sure what to write. If not blogger management is so gonna delete my account for occupying space on their list.

Lemmi share what happened recently bah, had opened up a twitter account (as per requested by my WH mei mei), and yea, enjoying it.
But im not sure if my other friend is pissed of me following her?

and some songs which im into recently :)

1. 后乐园 - FIR in their 'Fantasy in reality' album, track #10.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3yN2q8fBYxQ&feature=related
This is one of FIR's hits which I really enjoy. Love this song since sec 2? yeaaa... For so many years which nice songs had occupied my heart, this is one of those which I will not forget.
我努力往前奔跑直到天涯海角，却发现还到不了 (你的心里)..
This song is just totally awesome!

2. 如果有如果 - 阿福
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EEDKy3rhZaw&feature=feedlik
Simple.
Who says songs must be heavy in bass, drums, fast tempo, with loads of instruments and editing? Listen to this guys and change your concept!
Like this becos it gave the soft and light feeling :) It brings your emotions along with the tides as the song progresses. Easy listening, but very hard to sing. omg..

any feedback which is nicer? :)

Realized that Joanna is actually very very slow~~
Slow in work
Slow in speed
Slow in speech and
Slow in learning

And stupid too
She just cant seem to learn.
She refused to accept that her loved has left her to someone better
She refused to learn to live by herself.
To say good night to herself

恋爱中的缺点

2011-08-27T21:26:00.002+08:00

凭直觉从以下8种颜色中选出你最讨厌的颜色。

A: 红色
B: 粉红色
C: 黄色
D: 绿色
E: 蓝色
F: 紫色
G: 褐色
H: 黑色

分析：
A: 讨厌红色的你不喜欢别人跟你太亲近，即使对方与你情投意合，你也会临阵退缩，但你却说不上来究竟怕什么。虽然渴望爱情，却又裹足不前，这样矛盾的个性常让你在感情路上受折磨，错失不少良缘。

B: 讨厌粉红色的你在感情上总是口是心非，不够坦率，例如情人送了你梦寐以求的礼物，你虽然开心得不得了，还是会挑三拣四地说了一堆不该说的话，常让情人受尽委屈。

C: 讨厌黄色的你总是喜欢把自己的价值观套在情人身上，因此你寻找的伴侣多半是与自己个性相像，或是没什么想法的人，能够什么都依赖你的。可是与自己太相像的人在一起久了，你又觉得没火花，爱情面前你很矛盾。

D: 讨厌绿色的你在恋爱中总望被呵护，每分每秒都要得到伴侣的注意，要求对方不断为自己付出。你不会为人着想的个性，常不自觉地伤了情人，恋情的结束往往都是因为对方太累了。

E: 讨厌蓝色的你把崇拜、欣赏和爱恋混为一谈。你百般寻找互补的对象，认为情人若拥有你没有的优点，生活就会更精彩。可惜这样的恋爱基础不够扎实稳固，一旦出现更优秀的对象，你很有可能移情别恋。

F: 讨厌紫色的你在感情上一定要握有主控权，与其说是为了爱希望对方改变，倒不如说你要按照自己的期望去塑造情人。在感情上你很强势，喜欢控制对方，常让情人受不了而离开你。不过自命不凡的你，也不会为了情人的离开而难过太久。

G: 讨厌褐色的你总把朋友放在情人之上，与朋友相处的时间远比情人多，常被身边人怀疑你是否真有情人。你认为好朋友难寻，却忘了好情人也难寻。在为朋友两肋插刀时，却忽略了正默默守护着你的人。

H: 讨厌黑色的你讨厌被束缚，常用直觉来处理感情问题，让情人感到很不安。你相信一见钟情，很有可能为追求一时的刺激，而放弃平凡的恋情，等到火花过去才悔不当初。

.

Why

2011-07-03T23:48:00.004+08:00

Mom was giving me lots of excuses from stopping me against music.
Firstly: Music is a waste of money
Then: Music cant be a rice bowl
Followed by: Its still not time to learn music yet
Now: What future does u have with music?

So whats next?

Sorry, dont meant to rant here, to Jon, or to anyone.
But im really very disappointed.

Me:
Tried talking to my mom over the past few months. She is still very persistent over not letting me get involved in music.
There was once we passed by a music sch. Then I went 'wow wow wow' when i saw the instruments on display, and I am very shocked that she asked me if I really wanted to learn music.
But I dk why she kept insisting on a 'NO' now.

Jon:
Did u ask a reason?

Me:
She was telling me that music cant be a job. And she is forcing me to learn some other things.
And u all know how stubborn I am when it comes to music rite?
I was like: I didnt want music to be my job, its purely for my interest. How could u be so cruel to kill my interest?!

Why did u ever asked me if I would like a keyboard?
And why ask me if I wanted to learn music when we were outside the music school?
When u in the first place already had an answer - that is a NO.

Whats this all about?

Showing sympathy?
Giving me a glace of hope when u know its impossible?

Dont u ever know that I will be more disappointed when u gave a false hope? ):

Why is money the only concern for you?
Why must you manipulate my life the way you wanted it and planned it?
Why are you even manipulating my interest that I must keep?!
And WHY ARE U SO CRUEL TO KILL OFF MY DREAMS?

So why in the first place let me come across music?
And now disapproving me?

Any kind souls out there to enlighten me?

Signed off,
Dead Dreams.

下半年什么最困扰你？

2011-07-03T00:07:00.003+08:00

1) 你处理事情时常常是“能拖则拖”吗？
是 -> 2
不是 -> 3

2) 觉得自己常给别人添麻烦吗？
是 -> 3
不是 -> 4

3) 是否常妒忌事事顺心的人？
是 -> 5
不是 -> 4

4) 觉得自己桃花并不多吗？
是 -> 5
不是 -> 6

5) 你是“月光族”吗？
是 -> 6
不是 -> 7

6) 寒冷的冬天，如果你在犹如童话故事里的小红砖屋子里，你最想做的事情是？
泡茶给心爱的人喝 -> 7
在温暖的壁炉旁看书 -> 8
跟好友聚在一起 -> 9

7) 你相信有奇迹这回事吗？
相信 -> 8
不相信 -> 9

8) 你会选择的理财方式是？
购买基金 -> 9
炒股票 -> 10

9) 衣服、裤子和鞋子，你最喜欢买的是？
衣服 -> 10
裤子 -> C
鞋子 -> B

10) 你会用什么花来形容你未来的人生？
玫瑰 -> A
兰花 -> E
向日葵 -> D

分析：

A: 今年下半年最困扰你的是工作。对于目前的工作，你已觉得厌烦，奈何为五斗米折腰，即便不想上班也会拖着身子出现在公司。建议你为自己设个期限，若再努力也无法让自己更喜欢目前工作，那或许是时候另谋高就了。

B: 今年下半年最困扰你的是人生。对于你来说，工作、钱财不过是浮云，能让你人生有意义的事，你仍在挣扎地思考当中，可能是爱情也可能是梦想。建议你对自己好一点，让自己更开心，因为命运总是会顺势让你的人生更精彩。

C: 今年下半年最困扰你的是人际关系。你三不五时的查看手机、facebook，回家也对着电脑msn，却整天苦恼没朋友。其实人与人之间的关系不能通过屏幕来维系，如果想让自己的人际关系变好，主动拿起电话约朋友见个面吃个饭吧。

D: 今年下半年最困扰你的是钱财。你努力赚钱却不懂得理财，除了追求物质享受，你豪爽阔气的作风，让你每个月的口袋空空。建议你尽快列下省钱大计，并好好规划财务，相信你很快将有一大笔可观的储蓄数额。

E: 今年下半年最困扰你的是爱情。若是单身者，似乎已非常厌倦独自吃饭、看电影、逛街的日子；已有伴侣者，目前的感情路似乎比想象中还要崎岖难行。建议你用平常心看待感情的事，别太勉强，凡事还是顺其自然的好。

对我而言，这心里测验非常准 (:
我的分析是 B 啦，被爱情或梦想困扰。

梦想 - 唱歌的梦想
爱情 - 也是有关我的梦想的

所以因该两者都有吧 (:

Jieying's 21st party

2011-06-25T16:41:00.006+08:00

ok ok as promised.
19 June 2011
Aloha Loyang
6 - 10pm
back to school days theme

initially wanted to meet peiyee to buy present, but lazy to go out so early, so .... i went myself. peiyee wasnt able to attend the party as she is working. =(

and J lied to me!
giving me false hope that he'd be going but end up no. =(

well, nvm.

me journey plan:
- set off from home around 4.30pm.
- first station to northpoint harvey norman to print photos (as birthday cards)
- then headed to bishan J8 to buy $20 capital land mall vouches
- and then to serangoon (peiyee's workplace) to ask her write her greetings on the photos
- and to pasir ris mrt station to meet ziying
- and finally headed into aloha loyang - by FOOT. and guess what? we lost our way. HOW GREAT!!

was already half tired and sweating when we finally reached the loyang, so yeahh expect not much enjoyment from me yarhh? (:
just stepping into the hse, we are to read through a scrape book of jieying's 21 years of life. from baby to her 21st. and sat for a test after that. scored 55%.
now i finally understand what the 55 meant..

hmm.. not as enjoyable as tot it would be, cos the host is soo busy that she is unable to entertain us. plus, there is no one we know, except the two of us, ziying and me.

Joice and clique tried talking to us, but kinda weird lea, cos we arent very close with them.
well actually wanted to join in their clique de, but they are hard to join in as the 4 of them has very strong bonds, its hard for outsiders to join in.

ziying ate quite abit in the party.
one small portion of bee hoon, one small portion of pineapple fried rice, one stick of satay, one bacon + asparagus, one otah and 3 wings :P

and a very cute girl made that sugar candy for her, twice!! :D
she is sooo cute!! :) had the cake session and a photo with her, and home sweet home we go.
last but not least the door gift. jieying made each and every single one by herself. this is how totful she is.. busy despite her birthday.

and she made this for me toowas kinda touched and almost cried out when she passed this to me. but managed to hold it back and gave her a big bear hug (:

it wont be nice to weep at other's party

reached home 12.10am.
for usual, my mom will scold me for sure.
but surprisingly, she didnt!! :D
she still went to the bus stop and bring me back home, chase me to shower, and waited for me to sleep =x

is she more open to my curfew?
.
or has she given up hope on me? :)

its like, OMG.
finally seen vannie in person! she is realli very pretty, not onli in photos, but also in person!

and her voice is so cute and sweet (:
and skinny too.. can i donate some of my fats to her pls? =)

dont ask me why im so excited .
i also dont know why actually.

but somehow i realli admire her.
she seem to posses a certain charm that attracts me..

no worries im not in love with her
but she certainly is one of those who i will say i wanted to be friends with, and a close one.

im not sure if its becos of this particular reason, not very convenient to be said here =x

its no wonders why u like her

lovesss~

2011-06-20T22:43:00.003+08:00

Astrostage says for libra: u are likely to enjoy the success of other people by praising them (:
realli realli? i succeed? ahhahaha :))
蒜蒜星座说：双子座下半年有机会脱离单身，只要不将恋人当作救生圈，不过分依赖对方照顾，这段恋情将发展得相当顺利，也很有可能会步入婚姻。

is it true? :D

how true is it then? hm..

chat over the phone for an hour. had loads of fun, flattered, also some feedbacks for improvement. i like~~ (:

hardwork doesnt go to drain, my black humor was well liked, well, only by my teacher.

was requested an additional song: 여자 이니까.
will work hard on it, shall not and must not be a disappointment (:

are u sure u gonna appoint me as ur specially used vocalist if i succeed for ur this up-coming recording? (:

my peiyee is finally looking forward to having a bf (:
if got good boys, i will intro u de no worries!! so treat me to smth good, i wan make order first.. my sashimi and milk tea milk tea milk tea :D

okiee larhh, i am very sleepy. didnt sleep well last nite cos im worried sick. =(
but glad that its not that severe, so i can really sleep!!!!

but pls tc.. tyvm (:

shall not do a lengthy one here today.

some other days maybe?

then i will update on the birthday party?

u are my spirit booster, thats why i love u!! <3

the new bubble tea

2011-06-10T23:55:00.003+08:00

hii everybadae!! :D

see the pic?

introducing~the new bubble tea stall located at northpoint.

tried their original milktea, hmmm..

i would say, its not of my liking.
maybe its becos i have a more 难以伺候 taste buds or i am previously working on sensory evaluation or what..
the milk tea doesnt seem to appeal to me, quite bland =/
can only taste a v v mild hint of tea and milk.
peiyee's drink tea and KOI is so much better than this i would say, comparing that all 2 have the same pricing..

my usual milk tea is at least 100x better than it :P

but but
sensory perception is very personal based.
maybe to me its not nice, but to u it is nice, so do give it a try? (:

learnt that when you dont expect much, life is so much happier
learnt that trying so hard is not necessary better than being casual
learnt that patience and tolerance is very important in the society
learnt that no matter how tired you are, pls always keep the smile (:

.

Time, Pls. Stop

2011-06-06T23:04:00.005+08:00

今天公司替五月及六月宝宝庆生


没心情庆祝啦，那么多烦恼。。
哪开心得起？

残酷的时间啊~
求求你脚下绕人!

很快很快就要踏入 2 字头
$20 都没得找了。
觉得自己好老哦!
讨厌 :'(

一提到 2 字头，就觉得，
我和青春说再见了。。
伤心。。讨厌

听说
一旦踏入$20
很快就会变成 $30, $40..

不想那么快 $20
因为一旦踏入那人生的另一阶段
很快很快的
21 22 23 24....
统统都接着来

好老!

时间
请你给我最棒的生日礼物好吗？
就是让时间停下
我不想 $20

求求你饶了我吧!!

６月４号 - 和爱人的聚会

2011-06-05T00:28:00.008+08:00

和佩仪一起回学校换毕业礼炮

顺便吃麦当劳早餐 (:

好久好久没和她吃饭了，更别说早餐。。

快乐的时间总是过得特别快
吃吃饭拍拍照聊聊天
不知不觉都过了 4 个钟头

感觉有聊不完的话题
4 小时哪够?!

贴心的佩仪还邀我去她店里请我喝水
高兴高兴 (:
谢谢佩仪!

讨厌啦~
你可以不可以别一直 read my mind?
一直被你看穿，很没安全感耶。。

你超会演的好不好？
明明早就知道我的秘密却一直假装没事
我还一直被蒙在鼓里
好笨好傻哦!!

毕业咯~
别人毕业都很开心
我毕业却觉得高兴不起来，反而有些难舍。。

没什么值得我高兴的

我真的很讨厌现在的生活
讨厌现在的环境
讨厌现在的人与事
讨厌现在的自己
讨厌爱上了你

说实在的
处于这种环境，没人会理解我的感受
脾气再怎么好，再怎么有耐心也会觉得很无助。

那种精神上的折磨

我真的
.
很累

假如说钢铁磨成针
只要愿意等
只要肯爱得深
是不是就有这可能
有可能打动这铁石心肠的人?

.

Vesak day post

2011-05-17T18:47:00.005+08:00

hello all!! :D
hmm.. whens my last blog post? 1 May? ok larhh not too long ago XP.

today is Vesak day!! :D. which means no work day again for me! ^^
realised that ever since working life commence, im looking forward to weekend and holiday everyday.
and why is mon so far from fri and fri so close to mon?! :(

weekend and holiday is when i can really rest. been sleeping my afternoon away for those weekend which i no need to go out.
love that feeling <3

my eyes are giving me problem again.. i cant stare at my computer for too long cos it will start to feel irritated and heavy and start to tear.
my headache is back again.
hate it.

i miss sch life, seriously. thou i used to swear and curse about it.
but its the best moment ever in life.
i miss the past
i miss sch
i miss sch life

hate myself. *sulk*
i've grown and expanded outwards ALOT! i realli cant tahan my size now. look at the fats on me. they are tonnes omg! why cant i slim down!!
my face condition worsen. big pores and scars, plus uneven face tone and eye bag + panda eyes..
my hair also in a mess. dry and splitting ends, hair getting lesser and lesser..

so look at this and u understand my current size. i ate 8 mini PD chiffon in a day. darn too nice to stop popping them into my mouth.. so irresistible! hehehs..

and and drink tea launched their vinegar series.. tried cranberry and hazelnut milk tea the other day. NAISE!!

I WANT MY KOI AND MY SAKURA BUFFET SOON!! *stares at eliza*

i look like old aunty now!!
what have i done to myself uhh gosh?

bought a copy home, and taeyeon and jessica is forever sooo pretty!! <3
i also want to be pretty!! =.=''
well well, anyone can teach me some beauty tips ma? LOL-ed.

started to listen to jazz songs recently.. its quite beautiful actually and smth weird is how jazz songs will make me feel like singing along, swaying my body or made me feel so in loved. LOL!! yea i know its shocking cos u all know i used to hate it. my taste changed, yes. LOL!!

so whats ur comment if i said i wanted to pursue my dream as a singer?

你能应付危机吗？

2011-05-01T13:41:00.002+08:00

1) 有预言说2012年是世界末日，你认为：
a. 有可能 -> 2
b. 没这回事 -> 3

2) 如果世界末日即将来临，你会害怕吗？
a. 会 -> 6
b. 不会 -> 4

3) 你认为外星人曾经来过地球吗？
a. 来过 -> 5
b. 没来过 -> 7

4) 如果一年只有一个季节，你希望是：
a. 冬季 -> 5
b. 夏季 -> 8

5) 你想喝酸奶，却发现冰箱里的酸奶刚过了保质期一天，你会。。。
a. 扔掉 -> 9
b. 觉得可惜，会喝掉 -> 7

6) 你仰望星空看见一个会发光物体在移动，你觉得是：
a. UFO -> 8
b. 孔明灯 -> 10

7) 科幻片和灾难片，你喜欢：
a. 科幻片 -> 6
b. 灾难片 -> 11

8) 如果可以穿越时空，你希望去到：
a. 未来 -> 11
b. 过去 -> 9

9) 你做任何事都会提前规划？
a. 通常会 -> A
b. 一般不会 -> 12

10) 如果有来生，你想成为：
a. 男人 -> 9
b. 女人 -> 11

11) 当你受委屈时，你会忍不住：
a. 自我辩护 -> A
b. 哭 -> D

12) 当你打电话给朋友时，电话另一端却传来诡异声，你会。。。
a. 马上挂断电话 -> 13
b. 继续听个究竟 -> B

13) 你常常会因为促销员的一番话，而买下不需要的东西吗？
a. 会 -> C
b. 从来不会 -> 11

分析：
A: 你的警觉性很高，当危机来临时你仿佛早料到会是如此，不会感到恐慌，反而能集中精力，在最短的时间内找到最好解决方案。在别人眼里，任何危机在你面前只是小麻烦，因为你总是能应付自如。

B: 你十分理性，遇到危机时也不会慌乱不安，而是会快速平服情绪，冷静地思考解决的方法，平息突发事件。你凭着理性的思考将危机化险为夷的能力，总能给予身边的人满满的安全感。

C: 你的危机意识不强，应对危机的能力也比较弱。只有当情况真正威胁到你的生活时，你才会恍然大悟，情绪也因此不受控制地波动。建议你提高警惕，遇到危机时才能理性处理，顺利渡过难关。

D: 你的危机应对能力非常差，当遇到突发事故时你会变得焦虑不安，不知所措。你不知如何下手处理问题，一心只想逃避，很有可能把事情越弄越糟。其实你无须特别悲观，冷静应对，反而能更快找到解决方法。

backstabber

2011-04-21T23:07:00.002+08:00

seriously,
back stabbers should go to hell.

those who took salary for not doing anything, do you realli have the gut to keep the money?
dont ur heart guilt receiving at least 2.5K monthly just sitting there surfing the net like jetstar, online shopping, primary sch for ur little one, which restaurant offers the nicest food, which stall is having discounts, is LV/gucci/chanel offering new items?
or going into every single office and sit there for hours gossiping bout the latest slimming product? or any false of ur co-workers?
or clinging onto the phone for hours chit chatting with ur friends?
or taking more than the allowed time for lunch everyday?

or back stab people at their back?

beware of the consequence.

2011-04-05T23:52:00.003+08:00

strangers talking to me..

.
.
this is just an example..

.

mind u?

2011-02-25T23:52:00.003+08:00

whose the one staying till late night and being earliest to make preparations?
the effort paid got us an impression of not being proactive and brainless.
833 samples in a day!! 你厉害你自己来做。
我生出来不是给你骂的。
hate fuckers who are excellent in speeches (and ONLY speeches), and dont admit their own mistakes.

additional week of help?
or additional week of scoldings?
dont make assumptions on ur own preference when things arent confirmed.

我肯回去帮忙不是为了你

2011-01-29T20:53:00.003+08:00

hii all,
its been some time since last posting and im so sorry for not updating as i was realli very very busy with sch work. was sick for one week already, recovered from the fever, but havent recover from flu and cough. =(

had food exhibition on 26 jan.
was really busy for this exhibition, even on the day itself. its a game against time, when we are given such little time to settle so many things. cook another sample of pudding, prepare the samples, decorate the booth etc. its really omg, and still had to handle questions from lecturers and suppliers. was tough, but we survived =D.

omgosh, my primary school friend came to add me in fb on thur. i tot that we will nv contact and nv meet again, yet he found me on fb. he still remember me and my name after 7 years!! of cos i also didnt forget his. how could i ever forget? we used to be close friends till the extent we can be considered buddies!!
had such wonderful time chatting with him, and remembering how close we used to be in primary school. the most enjoyable time of our childhood, where least worries for studies and least problems in relationships. i miss him as well as my primary school!! and hehehee, he promised to treat me to a meal one weekend ^^.
its realli such a joy to be remembered by a long lost friend.

eliza basically served finish her fyp already, and she sits beside me PLAYING COMPUTER GAMES everyday, and till the extent that she was so bored from the games, she went on to watch movie and play with her iphone.
admit it, life's unfair. =(

when is fyp presentation? at first 21 feb and now 3 march. so whats next? 15 may?
i seriously dont think i can finish my work by presentation. how?

spoken the problem with my mom casually, and she took it as nothing. im stressed. eventually cried in front of her and my sis and point out to them how serious the issue is when my sis asked me a question. but i think they still dont know how serious this is. and was blamed that i dont spare a thought for my sis. howwww?????
='(

seriously, if i dont spare a thought for you, i wont be so stressed and in such a dilema..

아파

2011-01-18T00:11:00.007+08:00

You wear the shoes I gave you and walk along the streets with her
As if it were nothing, you kiss her.
You spray the cologne I gave you and embrace her
You'll probably repeat those promises you made to me with her

It seems that we're already too late
Has our love already ended?
Please at least say anything to me
We truely loved each other, can't we turn back?

You look at my tears as if it were nothing
You continue to talk calmly again
You told me cruelly that you couldn't deny
THat you had absolutely no attachments or regrets

Are we already too late?
Is our love over?
Even if its a lie, please tell me it isnt so.
I can do better now, though we cant meet again

Have you changed?
Am I no longer in your heart now?
When i think about you it hurts, hurts so much

You're no longer your old self
Because the you i loved and the you now are so different
Are you that shocked?
I just stood and cried watching you go further
No way, i cant recognise, you're not mine anymore.

Cant you come back?
Why did you have to change?
Cant you keep loving me?

I'm the only one hurting tonight..

E/>

dear hamster

2011-01-07T23:29:00.003+08:00

ooo.. im lazy again to update -.- but no choice still have to write smth. hmm.

went out yesterday to celebrate laura's belated birthday together with peiyee, cos both of us didnt attend her 21st chalet.. met at ion and had Sho Teppan as dinner!! me ordered salmon, laura had beef, and peiyee had shabu shabu!! yummy yummy~~ its very delicious!! but expensive thou. thanks laura for the treat!! ^ ^~.after dinner, we went to shop around and laura bought a chequered top. quite nice, but the price also nice. $79!!! omg faints~ after that, walked to somerset to have dessert, and home we go!! (:

having open house 2011 on thur, fri, and sat!! boring =.='' the Q side is more happening than the N side, which is always as usual larhh, nth to be surprised about..
students are taking too much ownerships, too committed in their work alr, which im nt sure if its a good or a bad thing. what i can say is dislike that feeling of being ordered around. so i didnt stay in my own lab for these 2 days. :C but nvm, i have more time to roam around the sch, and act chyna. =.=''
had fun, the CSI scene abit lame larhh, got dead ppl lying inside on the bed. but when u tickle it, it will move and laugh, when u punch it, it will shout out loud. =.='' the hanna this time round is nicee!! had it on my wrist. looks like a tattoo lea. i loveeeee <3>

!@#$%^&*$#^@

its last day with my dear hamster!! so sad =(
husna told me she read the card on the way home, and she actually cried abit. so sad. i also want to cry just now, but i force myself to smile. i dont want to let her leave in sadness. i want her to rmb the happiest memories in nyp with us. (:
for 2 total strangers to meet each other is not easy. for 2 total strangers to be so close is a miracle. 3 months. the great difference of 3 months. i can still rmb the first day when she appeared in my life, that we totally didint talk to each other, other than briefing her on her project. and upteem times i complained. but its that once when u've decided to tear down ur barrier, to throw away anger, that ur heart start to open and accept. the power of opening up our hearts is awesome. i got one more friend to treasure and dote on now (:
and i want to thank snail for her lovely present!! loveess. how she know i wanted these things? so sweet of her!! (:
pls rmb to return and look for us ok? i will be waiting, every tuesday, for breakfast and lunch tgt!! and pls rmb to eat. take care of urself larhh.. tsk tsk. see u soon and love u muchiee!! muacks

miss chuu

.

a good sleep (:

2011-01-01T23:39:00.002+08:00

yoyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyoyooooo...
i've been good, been blogging almost everyday!! C:
deserved being praised? ^ ^~.

first day of 2011 is coming to an end, but i did nth today!!
cos actually i've slept my whole morning away larhh haha!
fall asleep while watching the golden disk award yesterday, and slept all the way till 2pm!! wooohhh~~
after that lie in my blanket refusing to crawl up, so watch tv until 4pm then wake up. :P
its such a great pleasure siahh (: all of u shld try someday if u are free. muahaha!! ^ ^~.

xoxo,
jo.

GoodByes 2010, Nice2MeetChuu2011!!(:

2010-12-31T18:47:00.002+08:00

5 more hours and

yes, pls SAY this out:
Thank u 2010, u have been such a great one in my life. im gonna forget all evil sides of u. Goodbyes to u, im so gonna miss u, but only the good side of u, because i love u.
Nice2MeetChuu2011!!(: pls be good to me, so that i will love u even more than how much i love 2010 ^ ^~.

the year of 2010 passed by so quickly.. as if its just by the blink of the eyes. i can still rmb everything i went thro throughout the year..
its always good to force urself to look forward, but its this once in a year which u are allowed to look back and recap. these few hours. ppl planning how to start afresh.

so now its time to reflect on my year 2010..
i would say that i had a wonderful year, with tonnes of happiness and sorrows.
- met all my thai friends
- mixed rather well with 0801 (hopefully)
- 7 Dec 2009 - 6 July 2010
- completed all projects and reports
- sleeping along the corridoor
- gone thro the thorough process of examinations managing to pass all (phew!!)
- seeked for forgiveness by a total stranger
- started fyp and met my lab partners
- flare up
- attended class chalet
- joined SD for celebration of 80th anniversary
how did i ever had such great capacity to do all these?

anw, just to set some new year resolutions of the new year.
- pass all modules and graduate from poly smoothly
- find a suitable job to earn $$!!
- able to participate and committ to all activities i joined, the dance and the ensemble
- able to attend all my meerups with friends and attend bday parties of my friends
- be a good girl
- dote my skin
- SLIM DOWN!! seriously need this

in all, i had a great year, and made a major decision,

in search of my own happiness..

JIAYOU ALL, and HAVE A GREAT YEAR AHEAD!! (:

lovesss <3

12 星座明年运势

2010-12-30T22:09:00.004+08:00

看一看12星座明年应该注意什么健康问题吧！　这可以在 30 Dec 的我报找到哦。。

水瓶座：明年要注意精神疾病，容易受到外界的影响感到焦虑，也容易怀疑自己患上某种病。
双鱼座：明年整体运势不错，唯独健康运会让你特别操心，要小心容易患上难以治愈的怪病。
白羊座：整体健康会比 2010 年更好，不过仍要注意别操劳过度，同时也不能忽视慢性疾病。
金牛座：健康问题主要因工作引起。要留意失眠、心悸和冒冷汗等问题。这些都是大病前兆。
双子座：整体健康运较差。多数健康问题是压力导致。同时欲望也减低许多。性爱魅力变弱。(why of a sudden talk bout 性爱???? =.='' )
巨蟹座：明年健康运如同过山车。因此即使健康状况良好也得积极保健。别让病魔有机可乘。
狮子座：明年健康容易出现毛病。幸好症状都特别明显。发现问题时只要及时就医会很快康复。
处女座：明年健康运平稳。唯独要注意无妄之灾。出国旅游时要避开政局或气候不明朗的地方。
天平座：健康运不稳定。如果有血压高之类的慢性病得小心。因为很可能会导致中风等突发重病。
天蝎座：明年健康无大碍。只要顺应生理时钟正常作息。不要日夜颠倒工作。就不会出问题。
射手座：明年是调养身心的好年份。留意各种保健信息。积极参与任何能让你更健康的活动。
山羊座：明年的健康不错。不过精神焦虑的情况较为严重。可能因而导致失眠、食欲不振等问题。

Sometimes, we feel that life is being unfair to us, and feel like giving up.
We then release that frustration without thinking..
Don't do it! For it will lead us nowhere.
Instead, use our brains and learn how to live life.
Be calm, quiet, tranquil. Bloom as often as you can.
Stay close to your family.
Explore the world around you.
Enjoy the relaxing rhythm of waves.
Watch the moon rise.
Spread your wings and take off on your own.
Then enjoy the comfort of coming home again. (:

unexpected invitation

2010-12-28T16:08:00.005+08:00

is realli surprised and overjoyed to be invited.
it realli is such a honour to receive the invitation.

but dont know why, there is just some uneasiness..
how? :(

27 Dec 2010..

2010-12-27T15:31:00.006+08:00

hello hello,

im here to save my dying blog.
rotting rotting!! mites all over, so came to spray some pesticides. (:

how is x'mas for everyone? hope u all had an enjoyable one, just like me!
i spent my whole x'mas 2010 in the SIS.

reached SIS ard 11am, and leave at ard 9.30pm. yea, almost whole day.
cheerleading? yepp, it should be the word. screamed and sang and danced whole day..
its tiring! but fun thou. met loads of new friends and had tonnes of joy, also rmbing the mission of bringing joy to others. i hope all audience had a great day as well!! (:

but somehow, i felt that we are higher than the audience =.='' nvm nvm, had fun can alr!! :D.
im starting to miss my x'mas!! >.<''

woo, i found one interesting application in fb, the my status in year 2010.
really meaningful cos it brought up many many memories and emotions at that point of time when i posted the status.
i like some of the status like:
10Dec - love is a bed of lovely roses, but hurtful once fallen for its charm.
26Nov - 我的关怀方式是你无法察觉的悲凉
7Nov - What's the point of digging out the truth when u know its gonna hurt revealed?
7Sep - the promise
2 Sep - life is only these once, lve it without regret.
18Jul - no man is worth ur tears but once u find one that is, he wont make u cry.
22May - dont wanna try, cos all we do is fight and say the things that hurt too bad to where we both begin to cry..
21May - 心痛
each status up there have a meaning, and sad and happy memories.
yes yes, the status sum up my life stories..

All we need is love?

2010-12-17T23:32:00.004+08:00

Yes.
hello ewerybabae..
实在太久太久了！失踪一个多月了。
大家是否想我？
臭美
好中的鱼腥味 =.=''

最近嘛，测验。。
Advanced Chem + PDD
太棒了！
Advanced Chem 5 题，我只会 1 题。
PDD 4 题，我乱回答 3 题。
挺不错嘛，太棒了！
准备吃鸡蛋吧 (:
看得好开哦。。
没办法，只可以怪自己不努力好好温书
唉。。=(

Love is a bed of lovely roses,
but hurtful once u fall for its charm..

this is so demoralising.

2010-11-10T03:48:00.003+08:00

一直以来的努力 = 一个疑惑的眼神 + 冷漠的表情 + 泄气的评语 + 无奈的 + 否定的叹气 + 无奈的摇头

1 个东西换 5 个，还挺不错的嘛。。
哈。

well..

2010-11-08T23:07:00.007+08:00

congratulations! (:

treasure her, and wishing u a blessed relationship.

why shld i even bother and suffer alone when u are enjoying life out there?

cause obviously you dont even care..

没有过不去的事情，只有过不去的心情 (:

2010-10-24T23:48:00.004+08:00

大家好
今天又来咯~
因为不知过了今天后又几时才会上来这聊聊，所以就乘每个周末多写一些。

想借此机会与大家分享个小小故事。
一天在寺庙里，有个和尚不小心摔倒了。
在拖地板的和尚连忙跑过来，一直向他道歉赔罪。
“对不起，都是我的错。是我把地板抹得太湿了，才害你滑倒。对不起。”
这时守在门口的和尚也急忙的跑过来。
“对不起，是我的错，我没告诉你寺庙很滑，所以害得你跌倒了。对不起！”
这和尚连忙说到：“对不起，都是我的错，是我太匆忙了，没留意滑滑的地板，对不起。”

这小故事要告诉我们
体谅、退让　都是非常重要的。
想想若３和尚都不退让，硬碰硬的后果就是吵架翻脸。

很多时候，
太倔强太逞强也只有两败俱伤罢了。
俗语说得好：忍一时风平浪静，退一步海阔天空。

没有过不去的事情，只有过不去的心情
事情发生后都会过去。
放不下事情的往往是我们自己，折磨自己的人也是自己。
因为是自己不愿意放下过去，一直拿痛苦的回忆来糟踏自己的快乐。
所以人才会如此不高兴。
简单的道理，我今天才领悟。

每件事情的发生都有自己的原因。
虽然知道很辛苦，可是其中一定有它的原因。
请相信雨过天晴，冬必为春。
雨后美丽的彩虹一定会出现。
再寒劣的冬天也会过去，只要撑到底一定盼到春天的到来。
在艰辛的日子也会过去，所以好好珍惜那仅有的一次经验吧！

加油！！

我不再问为何是我
我会问若不是我，谁？

小葱头

2010-10-24T00:09:00.007+08:00

大家，抱歉，非常对不起。
太久没来写写东西了，因为实在太忙了。

这一整个礼拜我都非常非常忙。
拜五时
佩仪：可以去吃午餐了吗？
我：还没，我有可能没空去吃。
佩仪：吓，有这么夸张吗？

没办法，开学了，所以自然比较忙。
况且 husna 这星期不舒服，所以全部东西都我一个人包办。
真的很累很累。
每次都时不时会感到头重重晕晕的。差一点晕倒。
可是应该没人会有力气扛我吧，我那么重。哈哈

今天陪家人一起去 sakura buffet 吃午餐，顺便聚一聚联络感情。
还好啦，食物没上次的好吃。
下次有机会再上载今天拍的照片吧！
大家敬请期待~ （：

最近发生了太多太多事了，实在逼得我喘不过气。
承认当时我太冲动了。
我几乎失去理智了。

我只是一根小小的葱
那么无能为力的小葱头。
我自己都自生难保了，到底还有什么能耐帮助他人呢？
别傻了小葱头。。

紫螢说得对
自己的问题还没解决，别担心别人的问题。
这句话说出来容易，可是很难办到。
我很难不去想别人的问题
很难不干涉他们的烦恼。
我太过鸡婆了，所以才会如此懊恼。
因为总是把责任自己默默地扛起来，所以才会如此疲惫。

我真的很累很无奈，但谁明白？
普照大地的太阳也会累垮的。到时候，谁来照耀太阳？
每次都是我听别人哭诉，但谁来听我发泄？
又谁来跟我一起承担？

weekly post

2010-10-09T00:59:00.005+08:00

hello peeps!

aiyo lazy to change language to chinese today
so just gonna blog in english.
for those chinese-lovers, imma so sry yupp?

hmms..
been busy busy busy for
monday...
tuesday...
wednesday...
preparing scales.
thanks to mh for visiting on thur, if nt i doubt i can finish preparing the scales on time. (:
thank thanks (: went to amk hub with mh and py after sch on thur cos mh wanna buy pressie for mx and another friend.i saw 2 very very cute and unique necklaces and bling bling and and very tempting!!
but one is $25 and the other is $15.
too ex alr so cannot buy, so must resist myself as i spent $5 on a ring this wk le. ):

i like this ring becos it consisted of my 3 fav colour, and of cos the STAR!!! =D.
(how is my photography skill?hahaha.. dreamy dreamy de feel rite)

i wanna buy a new cammy!!
i want those cammy which can make the face smooth smooth de.
or a professional cammy.
but must save up cos gonna be ex bahh ):

friday..
i spent only $0.80 in sch today!! =D.
$0.60 in the morning to buy milo, and $0.20 for lunch.
$0.20 for lunch!! hahahaha xD.
thanks to mr tay and ms sze for the treat (:

i think yuyong and aijin de throat gonna tear apart alr.
mac on thur
mac on fri (somemore macspicy!)
hahahha!!
haleluya!
hahahaha xD

this wk is funn funn funnn!
cos its singing and more singing tgt. (:
xixixi.. miss kbox-ing tgt dears!!

there is smth tt made my friday nt as perfect.
its just regarding the 10th anni dinner.
which i felt very very heartache and seriously my heart sank when i heard what i've heard.
everything's just too late, so nth much to say alr.
just to inform u guys (for those who still following this blog) tt im nt going for both the dinner and the bbq.
im sorry.

photoshooting day

2010-10-03T01:44:00.007+08:00

哈咯打卡后！
嘻嘻没有啦，只不过讲了一些广东嘛。

刚刚把在相机里的照片拿出来看
找到了这些照片
所以就来这儿上载在部落格了。

这些都是拜三时摄影天时空闲时拍的照片。
老师原本要选八个人进行拍摄的，
可是每个人你推我我推你的，
所以为了公平起见，
老师直接叫每个人都得拍。
所以啊，需要我准备一些样品要拍。

拜三一大早就开始准备样品。
到下午去化妆。化妆师长得蛮清秀亮丽的。
所以就夸了她几句

结果啊，她因该是太开心了吧，把我的妆化的特别浓。
起初我在厕所时被镜子里的自己吓着了

可是那妆久了后就比较好了点，好看很多。

我的妆。。

拍摄的地点。。

样品。。

拍摄完毕后，老师带着其他人到 5 楼继续拍照
留下我在 6 楼收拾。

收得差不多后
一位不速之客突然出现在我的门口
吓了我一大跳！
就连我也会被吓着，可想而知他长得有多恐怖了吧？
到底是何方神圣？

对！就是他！！
看吧看吧，一来就 kope 我 sensory lab 内的东西吃。
手里拿着乳酸菌，笑得多开心的样子..

还想若无其事的毁灭证据？！

吃完了乳酸菌还不够，想拿牛奶喝

而且是全脂牛奶哦~

好可怜！
他一来就把我 sensory lab 内的东西吃一大半去了。
Jessie 回来一定问我东西到底跑到哪儿了。
惨了惨了~

所以啊，为了保命
我把恐龙拉到 Q6 那儿
避免他继续吃我的东西
嘻嘻。。

在那儿
我们看到了他们用来拍摄的一些道具

看吧，我都说了
我们的合照还是第一张最好看^ ^~

说真的我感到非常庆幸
我还以为这次我的大考会不及格
感谢老师
感谢上天
感谢外曾祖母

这次的大考是我有生以来最艰辛的一次
虽然路途坎坷
可是最终熬过来了
谢谢你给我这难忘的经验

谢谢你(:

slacking day = happy day ^ ^~

2010-10-01T21:48:00.006+08:00

hellohello..
差不多有两个星期没消息了
所以今天一定要来写写东西
不然大家会把我忘了吧！
开玩笑啦。。

今天儿童节
很多教师都 self-declared children's day
也不想想他们已经几百岁了。
哈哈哈！！不是啦。。
Jessie 人在 KL 休假，
Ms Sze 和 Ms Tay 去 attend course
Mr Johnny 在当兵
Ms Gan 和 Ms Tan 人在外国只留下可怜的 Lin Liang。
所以啊，就因如此，每个人都在 slack..
也因如此, 今天是个非常好玩的一天 =)
我们全乘老师们都不在时提早回家!。

Ruyan 问我要不要跟他们一起去 Kbox我心里真的挣扎了好久好久。。
因为时间与经济都不允许。
可是最后还是决定跟着一起去，
因为是个难得的机会。

所以我跟着 Geoff, Ruyan, Yuyong 和 Aijin 一起去 Kbox.
超好玩的。
AiJin 人也超好笑的。
她说就当作是 "the celebration of the last day of freedom"
因为 Ms Gan 很快就要回来了，大家也开始有的忙了。

嗯。。
我觉得我一直抢着麦克风唱歌哈哈哈!!
我们 5 人，结果大多是女生唱歌。
可怜的 Geoff 显得有点闷。
唱歌时也乱乱唱。
我们认为是因为某某人没来，所以很闷。
Aijin　说如果那某某人又来的话，你认为他还会唱到这样吗？
哈哈哈!

我们唱了好多歌
有 Nevermind，触电，掉了，记得，安静了，枫，说好的幸福呢，分手快乐，会呼吸的痛，屋顶，小酒窝，雨爱，匿名的朋友。。
很多很多很多。。
还有 "爱拼才会赢" (sang by Lord Geoff)
他还问谁要唱"车站"？
可是最后没点啦。
哈哈哈！

单单我自己就 solo 了"人质"，"没有你的每一天" 和 "反复记号"。
最后还和 Yuyong 合唱了 "对的人" (the killer of all songs)。
我唱得差一点死掉了！！。。
因为Yuyong sabo 我，把那飙高音的地方丢给我飙。
真的差一点死掉。哈哈哈！
还好当时在房间里只有我和调皮鬼两人。
没办法，坏事做太多，现在别人找到机会报酬了。。
任命吧！

发现到我唱的歌难度一个比一个高。
所以嘛，破音和走音的地方一首比一首多。=.=''
惟有 "反复记号" 炫示得最好。。

大家边唱边聊天边笑，玩得很开心
虽然 5 人都唱得不怎么好，可是相信都很开心 ^ ^~
我们都很珍惜这次的聚会
因为大家都知道这种机会并不多
以后也未必有着机会了。。

快乐的时光总是过得特别快。
这种机会还会有下次吗？

FYP 的第一周

2010-09-19T17:06:00.006+08:00

对不起那么久没来这儿 update.
有差不多两个星期了吧！
是很想写写东西，可是又不知要写些什么，不然就是太忙了，没时间写。
突然想 blog in 英文，可是太久没写了，所以有点生疏。
还是乖乖写华文吧

一：
FYP 的第一天。
哎呀，第一天嘛，都是大扫除的啦。。
看吧！一大堆的牛奶在冰箱里，都丢掉了。。
二：
今天没带老公上学因为安排好了今天去 AMK 的 NTUC 做市场调查。
原本是想自己一个人去的，结果 peiyee 打来问我要不要去 AMK　吃饭。
所以就跟着 peiyee, wilson, ms irene, mr johnny, 和其他两位 TSO 一起吃午餐，然后又跑到NTUC　买牛奶粉。哈哈！！下午回到学校时，跟着 peiyee 一起到学校的图书馆借了４本书来阅读。
用功吧？嘻嘻。。

三：
今天，为了明天的 screening test 准备了一些 samples.
有好多好多，全都要自己一个人喝完。
超夸张好不好？！
准备完后真个人好累哦！晚上的题目会我都是半睡半醒的。哈哈！

四：
今天很不舒服。
出门时差一点晕倒。
原本是不想去学校的，可是今天会很忙，有 screening test 要做，又要跟老师‘‘讨论’’，所以不得不去学校。
还好 screening test 的到满分，而且跟老师的“讨论”也还蛮顺利的，只是还需要做更多的市场调查。
好高兴哦！一切都是值得的！

五：
整天在做 risk assessment.
拜一要给老师签名。
早上 meihui 来学校找我们。
原本说好放学后一起去外面吃晚餐的，可是临时取消了。
没关系，改天吧　（＝
meihui 太好耍了，拿了她的东西她也没察觉。
好好玩哦！哈哈。。
看吧。。拿了她的帽子拍了一张照，她还是没察觉。
嘻嘻～

终于熬过 FYP 的第一周了！
结果发现好多人都生病了。。
大家要好好照顾自己哦。。

越来越喜欢自己一个人在 lab 里头的感觉了！（＝

为什么一个好好的聚会会搞成这样？
破坏的不仅是气氛
也是我们之间的感情

十万个为什么!

2010-09-07T21:24:00.003+08:00

为什么?
为什么?
为什么??
为什么天空会有云?
为什么飞机会飞起?
为什么月亮有时圆有时又不圆?
乌乐博士来说明,
十万个为什么告诉你。
十万个为什么!

乌乐博士好像什么都懂哦,
能回答十万个为什么耶。
我也想请教乌乐博士一个很简单的问题。
为什么我会得到这个 fyp topic?!!!
哀~

0609 是好是坏?

2010-09-06T21:17:00.004+08:00

好累哦!
这个周末都几乎没睡觉。都一直在巴士上补充睡眠。
真的累！

06092010

两年前的今天，我有多么高兴多么兴奋。
在舞台上得到百多人的掌声、赞赏，开心。

这一年的今天，既开心又担心，也伤心。
非常讽刺。
开心因为我们终于挨过那辛苦的大考了！
但心因为不知成绩会如何。到底会不会及格？
伤心。哎~ 怎么说呢？事实不会改变，还是算了吧。

两年后的今天，到底会发生什么事呢？

眼看自己亲爱的人离去
滋味如何？

别灰心 =)

2010-08-30T12:50:00.003+08:00

最近又陷入那一段人生最低潮期。我也不知道发生什么事，无缘无故就会哭。
那种感觉又回来找我了。。
明天就是大考了，我的功课还没做完，课文也还没温习。明天该怎么办？！

我学到，现实是残酷的。
就算自己多么不愿意前进，地球不会为你而不转动，时间也不会为了你而停顿。
惟有逼自己加快脚步，跟上步伐。

池田先生曾说过，当你越觉得困苦时，就是越接近痛苦结束的时刻。那个时候，只要在坚持多一下，就那么多一下下，痛苦就会过去了。。

所以，虽然真的很灰心，可是我们千万别放弃，别败北。

东西都有两面，与其一直埋怨为什么这个为什么那个？为什么没时间？倒不如利用我们埋怨的时间去做些更有意义的事情，列入把埋怨的时间拿去写功课？
往好的方面想吧！不高兴也没用啊，没有东西会因为你不高兴而改变，对吧？（最多改变的只是脸上多了几条皱纹罢了。哈哈！）

拿出自己的活力来解决眼前的困难吧朋友们！
加油加油加油！=D.

烦恼

2010-08-26T14:26:00.007+08:00

烦恼烦恼烦恼烦恼烦恼烦恼烦恼烦恼 ='(

时间一分一秒过去，我的课文还是那一整座山。都只剩下少过一个星期的时间就大考了，可是到现在连一科都还没读完，真要命！虽然在考试，可是还是有 report 和 project 还没做完，真是完蛋了。
最近也发生了很多事。。又要担心这个又要担心那个，没心情 K 书啦。。怎么办？？
为了这件事我几乎吃不下，睡不着。。要死了。
懊恼，叹气，堵嘴。。 >.<

现在最想大喊一声：

神啊，救救我吧！！

fyp topic 好烦恼

2010-08-22T15:33:00.005+08:00

哈咯哈咯大家好！

再擦不多一个礼拜后就是大考了。
真是的，平时在这时我就已经禁止自己碰电脑了，可是为何这次我还在玩电脑呢？
嗯，有可能今天是我最后一天碰电脑吧。
哈哈哈，可是总是说说罢了，对吧？
其实还有很多东西没做，micro 还没做，nutri 只完成一个，课文都还没温习。。惨了惨了，这次的大考会怎么死呢？不敢想象！
对了，老师要我们选择我们的 fyp project topic.

Project	Title
Project 1	Development of functional chocolates
Project 2	Monitor culture survival and chemical changes of yoghurt drinks during storage
Project 3	Analysing minerals in food using ISE andpotentiometer
Project 4	Development of Soy Yoghurt Soft Serve
Project 5	Development of Guidelines/ Best Practices for Fresh Produce (leafy cut)
Project 6	Development of Mussel products - mussel sauce
Project 7	Developing GMP Procedures
Project 8	Food business and trial production vegetarian kaya
Project 9	Validation of pre-enrichment broth for detection of Listeria monocytogenes
Project 10	Develop a shelf-stable carbonated green tea drink
Project 11	Model thermal inactivation rate of Salmonella spp. and surrogate during pasteurization (holding time) in generic culinary pastes of varying water activity and pH.
Project 12	Training sensory panel
Project 13	Examination of quality and safety in products by local food manufacturers

我真的不知道该选哪个好。
老师只给我们一个星期考虑。
可是要考虑的因素很多。
teacher-in-charge 和 partner
我还蛮像选 4 & 10 的，可是又害怕。
很担心自己选错后那六个月就要受苦了。
搞得自己很烦恼。=(

最近蛮迷这两首歌的：tik tok by kesha 和 bad girl, good girl by miss A.
说到 miss A，她们是 4 人组成的女子组合。各个都很会唱，也很会跳，蛮厉害的。挺喜欢她们的。
bad girl good girl 的歌词唱道：you dont know me, so shutup boy!when i dance, im a bad girl, when i love, im a good girl

tik tok 呢，我好喜欢这句歌词：the party dont start till i walk in..让人听了有那种女王的感觉。哈哈哈！！想太多。。

嗯，几张照片，都是太无聊时拍的。哈哈哈！

大家猜猜他是谁？(=

这个嘛。。吃完晚餐后没事做，就乱乱在饭盒上涂鸦。哈哈哈！它可是一首歌哦！

突然心血来潮。。

有艺术感吗？大家该是想我从哪儿下载的吧？
告诉你们：www.joanna.com.sg

受到一份特别的邀请，
真的很想加入，可是妈妈会准许吗？

你的幼稚程度有多高？

2010-08-17T22:31:00.002+08:00

如果你是童话故事中，想吃掉小红帽的大野狼，你觉得用哪一种方式可以吃掉她？

A) 用烟把小红帽熏到晕倒
B) 用锤子把门整个砸坏
C) 从烟囱偷偷爬进屋内
D) 模仿小红帽的外婆的声音骗她开门
E) 等小红帽没戒心自己出来

快！做选择啊
..
..

别偷看解答，快选啊。。
..
..
..
..

答案在此！

选择A：
你简直是个幼稚鬼，做什么事都凭着感觉走，想做什么就做什么。
幼稚指数99%。

选择B：
你属于比较大男人主义或是女人我最大的类型，表面上看起来很成熟，其实内心幼稚的要命。
幼稚指数80%

选择C：
你知道做事情要用手法，也懂得不断地学习，让自己在摸索过程中成长起来。
幼稚指数55%

选择D：
你懂得说话的技巧，会和他人做进一步的沟通，处理事情的时候有耐心且能够抓住人性。
幼稚指数40%

选择E：
你对很多事情已经懂得放手，深谙强摘的瓜不甜的道理，因此不管工作或者爱情，你都能沉住气地等待。
幼稚指数20%

我选了E。幼稚指数20%罢了耶！=D.

对的人

2010-08-15T00:33:00.003+08:00

能愿意为了一份爱
付出去多少
然后得到多少并不计较

当我想清楚的时候
我就算已经准备好
放手去爱
海阔天高

爱要耐心等待
仔细寻找
感觉很重要

宁可空白了手
等候一次
真心的拥抱

我相信在这个世界上一定会遇到
对的人出现在眼角
(=

-

2010-08-06T21:49:00.003+08:00

哇！最近忙得 update 的时间都没有。终于熬完了这艰辛的一星期！总算有些时间来发泄一下。

8月4日
你问我我们还是朋友吗？
说真的我不知道该怎么回答。

怨，有啦，纯粹是功课上的怨言，私人怨言已没了。
其实真的不再怨你了。
peiyee 说的没错，原谅放下，我会快乐点。

8月5日
今天早上跟 raymond, peiyee, juinrong 做 project discussion.

过后宝贝 regina 来学校找我。太久没跟她会面了，好想她哦~
regina 变得很苗条，很漂亮。羡慕死她那迷人的身材耶！
我们聊了很多很多，可是似乎有讲不完的话题。可惜时间不允许啊！
她称赞我变瘦了耶，好高兴哦！！
regina 就快上大学了，到时候一定会很忙。
记得要好好照顾自己的身体，知道吗？
快快再约个时间一起会合好吗？

到了傍晚，ziying, meihui, roufang, weichiang, grace 和我一起提早庆祝了 peiyee 的生日。
我们7点约在 sumo house 吃晚餐。在唱生日歌时，peiyee 很尴尬，从头到尾一直在用手掌盖住脸。过后要她许愿，她反而要我们每人给她许个愿。很开心耶！
蛋糕也是 ms gan 请的客，因为她感到非常愧疚她没能出席我们的生日派对。
过后我们去看 inception.
我只看了半小时的戏就开溜了，因为太迟了。

回到家，真的不出我所料。
原本开开心心的一天，就这样画上有污垢的据点。
是有那么一点点可惜。

8月6日
今天是我们这寿星 peiyee 的生日！
peiyee，生日快乐！

今天早上到学校继续做　project.
然后和 weichiang, thawit, meihui, peiyee, ziying 一起吃午餐。我们打包在 tutorial room 里吃饭，因为我不想去 canteen 吃。哈哈！谢谢你们那么愿意配合我！
geoff, wilson, raymond, hanie, galex　也在房间里。很多人对吧？
我们在聊吃的，突然变成了蟑螂，壁虎，蚂蚁，大便。超不卫生的！哈哈！
吃完后我就直接回去做 presentation slides 了。
突然 peiyee 问我：joanna, 你是不是瘦了？
开心开心，我问她有吃什么我请客，结果每个人就争先恐后的赞我瘦了，超敷衍超现实的好不好？！哈哈。。

今天也是 project 2 和 PDD 的展览会。有蛮多好吃的产品。
过后我们有我们的 labelling presentation. 这次的 presentation 好轻松哦。完全没压力，每个人表现的都不错。

只不过，完美的一天被这一幕破坏了。
人性丑陋的一面。
我真的不明白事情为什么会这样？
要说是班里竞争太大，还是你人缘比较差？
你真的还挺可怜的。
那种滋味并不好受，真的。
唉，该说什么好呢？
我唯一能做的只是叫你别伤心，我什么都帮不上忙。真失败。
别再伤心了，别忘了我还是在这儿的！
可怜的心肝啊～。 ='(

mock interview

2010-07-30T00:49:00.005+08:00

大家好
这些是我们comm skills mock interview 时拍的照。。
可惜我没能跟彩虹一起拍。

mock interview 时我真的紧张得要命啊！
几乎当场哑口无言。
好恐怖哦！>.<

看吧，站在她们里面
就像巨人，大象！
真的该减肥了。

从小有人偷偷告诉我
男生女生不能一起玩
各有所好多少不习惯
难免有麻烦

长大有人再度警告我
男生女生不要一起玩
因为爱苗如果长出来
收拾不简单。。

napfa pictures! =)

2010-07-18T17:26:00.005+08:00

helloa!

just some random pics we took on our napfa day.
well, all of us looked worn out cos its the end of our napfa! hahah!! xD. kae, i think im the one to initiate the photo taking? LOL!

remember this? familiar? so long nv see this number alr: 0802!

huaax, mii, sitiiii (=

sumi, jessie, fang, huaax, mii, siti.. >

evil girls are pointing mids at siti, except for sumi, huaax and mii, we are good girls (=

napfa day

2010-07-15T22:57:00.003+08:00

today had our first and also the last napfa in our poly life.

total of 6 stations, i managed to pass 3 -.-
theres nth to be so proud of actually. but well, at least i passed half of it! =D.

im shocked that hey, i've managed to pass my shuttle run the first time in just a try, and i just hit the minimum to pass, 12.4sec -.-''
im disappointed that i didnt manage to do even a chin up. used to have 10..
im very disappointed with my sit and reach! my personal target is >50cm, but i only maaged to get 49cm. so damn disappointed.

finally! the napfa over alr!
yeahhh (=
had a wonderful day today, and had enjoyed the napfa process.
never have i felt so healthy before after the 3 yrs in poly. =D

lets go run tgt again!!

thanks for everything u did,
u made me grow and become stronger
one day i'll return being a better person
dont ever regret ur beautiful art piece on me.

because i am a girl..

2010-07-11T15:59:00.002+08:00

I just can't understand the ways
Of all the men and their mistakes
You give them all your heart
And then they rip it all away

You told me how much you loved me
And how our love was meant to be
And I believed in you
I thought that you would set me free

Been told a man will leave you cold
Get sick of you and bored
I know that it's no lie
I gave my all, still I just cry

I Want You So
Now you leave me in the cold
How could this be?
I thought that you Really Loved Me

Into the Night
I will pray that you're alright
You hurt me so
I just can't let you go

You took advantage of my willingness
To do anything for love
Now I'm the only one in pain
Will you please take it all away?

Never thought Born being A girl
I can love you and be burned
Now I will build a wall
To never get torn again

Never again will I be fooled
To give my all when nothing's true
I won't be played again
But I will fall in love again

You should've just told me the truth
That I wasn't the girl for you
Still, I didn't have a clue
So my heart depended on you

Although I'll say I hate you now
Though I'll shout and curse you out
I'll always have love for you
Because I am a girl

Well See You Soon...

2010-07-10T21:23:00.001+08:00

花以丢了
眼泪干了
回忆收了
我的心也死了

HACCP

2010-07-09T22:38:00.002+08:00

Love VS HACCP.

Love is just like a HACCP plan.
How does the 7 principles applies?

1. Hazard Analysis
What is love? Why you fall in love? Who is the other you fall for? What is his/her characteristics? Better as friends or lovers? What is the price to pay being in a relationship?

2. Identify Critical Control Points
What are the points which cant be overdone? What must you look out for? What are the Dos and DONTs? What are the NO-NOs in a relationship?

3. Establish Critical Limits for each Control Points
What is the acceptable M, m, n and c? What is the limit that he/she should not exceed?

4. Monitor Critical Control Points
Dont let love control you, you have to control love. Check on your loved?

5. Establish Corrective Actions
What are the problems your loved and you faced? What are the threats? How are you going to solve it? Sit down and have a calm heart to heart talk and come to a solution? Give each other time and space? End the relationship?

6. Establish Record Keeping Procedure
Record whatever mistakes you done, and make sure you wont redo it again. Learn from your mistakes improve your relationship.

7. Establish procedures to ensure the HACCP system is working
Is your HACCP plan working as intended? Is this person trustworthy? Is he worth your love? If not, what to do next?

Love
as easy as it seemed
as easy as just four letters
is indeed hard to understand

分手快乐

2010-07-06T22:03:00.000+08:00

分手快乐祝你快乐
你可以找到更好的
不想过冬厌倦沉重
就飞去热带的岛屿游泳
分手快乐请你快乐
挥别错的才能和对的相逢
离开旧爱像坐慢车
看透彻了心就会是晴朗的
没人能把谁的幸福没收
你发誓你会活的有笑容

2010-07-05T21:12:00.002+08:00

妈妈和姐姐都不在家。
一个人在家，坐在客厅吃着妈妈为我准备的晚餐。
虽然只是一盘普普通通的冬粉，可是装满了爱心。
突然 'dear mom' 这首歌的旋律开始在我脑里打转。
浮现脑海的是妈妈从小对我的呵护。
我跟妈妈那美好的时光。
我是如何忤逆妈妈的话，不听劝告，
继续伤害她。
在自己的私人空间不需隐瞒自己的感受。
泪水再也忍不住。

妈妈，你是对的。
为何当初没听你话？

青少年们
好好享受青年自由的专利
不要急着想长大
大人的世界太复杂。。

birthday #2

2010-07-02T23:10:00.008+08:00

hiii,
as promised.

this is the pressies from :
and guess what is it?.
.
.
.
.tada!
so nice to hug!! and its so cute! see this:wahahah! =D.
and this is another pressie from mh, py and zinc. they ask me arent i surprised that the 3 of them only gave me a hairband, and do i think they are so mean? hahaha!ur spent alot of $ on this rite? =(( poor things, but thanks alot! =D i like the kitties! =D

and this is my family's portion:the cake which my uncle bought for me (=

有些东西很难解释
尤其是感情。。

醒了

2010-06-23T22:15:00.002+08:00

最近不知为什么
整个人都恍恍惚惚
做什么都提不起劲
也闷闷不乐

虽然无数次告诉自己要坚强
可是说的总是比较容易

今天买了我最喜欢的饮料
手上捧着茶冰
突然嘴角移动了

那是我遗失很久的东西　－笑容
不是像平时对别人笑的笑容
也不是像平时为别人而笑的笑容
是打从内心的笑容
是真正给自己的笑容
此刻的笑容是最真实最闪耀的

此刻，我醒了
虽然只是短暂的几秒钟
可是是真正属于自己的几秒钟

我了解了生命是可贵的
此刻，我答应自己要认认真真地活着

birthday

2010-06-11T23:08:00.004+08:00

hello hello!
finally updated le! =D.
this is some of the photos for my birthday celebration.

i must say a big big thanks to everyone, especially my cliques(=
thank you meihuithank you peiyee
thank you ziying
thank you chiang
thank you junior
thank you jessie
thank you nuraini
thank you amanda
thank you samthank you gureisu
thank you fang
thank you mua
and thanks to everyone who wished me! =D

my cake

by peiyee. we had a great time erasing off the marker using ethanol ehh? xD.

whats inside all these nice wrappings?

ta dar! =D. pooh pouch by jessie and hh, hairband by my cliques, perfume by mua

by my sis

still got one more, but i havent take the pic. its by wc, fang, nuraini, grace, amanda and sam.

thanks everyone!

2010-06-09T00:08:00.002+08:00

THANK YOU ALL FOR THE WISHES AND PRESSIES AND ALL!
i shall update more on my birthday when i get the pics (=

but all i wanna say is THANK YOU! =D.

六月一日：孤单的日子

2010-06-01T15:44:00.003+08:00

今天是六月的第一天。
佩仪没来学校。
泰国朋友不在学校。
也没什么课。

早知今天就不来学校了。
我没上 nutri，
也没上 comm skills，
更没上 practical。
一天内翘了那么多堂课。
我根本没心思上课。

我一个人在前往学校的路上，
感到十分空虚。
在空当时，
跑到我们的歇息之处。
一踏进门，
似乎缺少了什么东西。
桌子空荡荡的，
也少了以往迎接我们的问候与笑容。

再见

2010-05-31T22:59:00.007+08:00

该怎么说呢？
告别总是无奈的。

俗话说：不在乎天长地久，只在乎曾经拥有。至少我拥有了难忘又快乐的１０天。虽然只是短短１０天，可是已经足够了，我很满足。我真的很开心能遇到你们，并结成当朋友。

要以一颗感恩的心，感谢他们给的一切。
感谢他们带来的快乐。
感谢他们带来的笑容。
感谢他们带来的友情。
感谢他们的真心。
谢谢你们


虽然言语不通，可是一个笑容一个拥抱就是最好的沟通语言了。
答应我你们一定要幸福哦！别让你们灿烂的笑容消失哦。。

ORN, GIFT, LILY, PRAEW, PING 和 OAM
这份友情，我会牢记在心，永远永远。。

CS presentation

2010-05-25T22:56:00.005+08:00

今天是 CS 的 formal presentation.
这可是我们第一次在其他班里的 solo presentation 哦！超紧张。
佩仪的题目是 starbucks, 而我的是 hershey.

说老实话，其实我并没好好准备。我的 slides 都是昨晚弄的。嘻嘻。。
真的很累，因为我弄到四点才睡，而且七点又爬起床上学。穿 formal 已经够惨了，最闷的是还得 follow rules.
长袖，裙子，高跟鞋，还得化妆！
高跟鞋弄得我的脚好痛哦！我拼命的拿 plaster 贴脚。呵呵！最贴心的是我们的泰国朋友也给我 plaster. 很感动！

虽然很紧张，可是，都过了！当作是一场美丽的噩梦吧！

好，就让你们看看我们的丑照吧！　很难得哦!

完美据点。

dont wanna try

2010-05-22T22:55:00.003+08:00

i cant believe you have the nerve to say the things you said
they hurt so bad that they almost ended our relationship
i cant believe it..

how i wished things would have happened so differently..

and baby i
dont wanna try
dont wanna try
cos all we do is fight,
and say the things that hurt too bad to where we both begin to cry

dont wanna try
dont wanna try
dont wanna try
no more
tell me whats the use of holding on when all we do is hurt our love?

navy open house

2010-05-21T21:21:00.004+08:00

i felt that im such a big baichi. xD yest eliza sent me a msg to inform tt we have to complete the micro quiz. this is how she typed the msg: 'Hey! The Micro test gt 2 attempts! Do SMS ur buddy! Kind soul SMS 02 and 03 peeps also if u have ther number! Joanne, can you send to your classmates thkq=)'. its rather weird larhh, is like 02 and 03 didn even take the module but still hv to do the quiz,and i doubled check that 02 and 03 have to do the quiz as well.. eliza tell me have to, so i gong gong go forward the msg to py, mh and zy. ended up, i realised that i misunderstood the msg le =.='' siannn... py was laughing me st for 10 min after she knew this.. =.='' shldnt have told her.. =.=

today had to go to sch for a trip to the navy open house to fulfill our NE requirements thou its elearning week. very reluctant to go at first, but enjoyed myself there, so not bad not bad..
actually the trip itself is rather boring de, but its the people ard us which made it lively! we went with the thai friends, done lots of things together, and took lots of pics. so funn! now at least i found out that they are so zi lian to the extent that they can take pics every now and then.. xD more zi lian than me.. (= but good larhh, take more pics and they served as a memory (=
shall upload the pics here one day, cos i havent got the pics with me now.. (=

患难见真情。
原来当你最无助时，惟有家人和朋友始终对你不离不弃。
你会发现在你身边的才是真正关心你的人。
表现得若无其事，其实只是不想面对现实，因为我不知道该怎么办。
逞强，是为了掩饰自己的软弱，却是件很痛苦的事。

specially for huihua.

2010-05-10T22:30:00.007+08:00

*clear troat*
1, 21, 2, 3 go~
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to youhappy birthday to huihua
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to my darling jiejie! =D
surprised? hahaha!

time flies rite? known you for like 2 yrs plus le? i still remember the first time we met! =D i mistook you as an ah lian tt time, but, honestly, a book cant be judged by its cover. where got ah lian so clever de? hahaha! xD

生活道路上种种障碍。喜怒哀乐必定有, 当然压力少不了，社会压力、工作压力、家庭压力。很累吧！可是又能怎么办呢？放弃吗？人生路途很多，就算怎么累，怎么撑不下去，也是要坚持。只要坚持这，一定会有个出路，有希望。选择什么都好，就是不要放弃！放弃就什么希望都没了。

if you find it hard to share with others, remember..i am always here for you. you can share your sorrows with me, my ears 24 hrs dont hit sheep.

冬必为春。。

what to say?

2010-05-09T23:18:00.002+08:00

its so long ever since i've done a project that made me so hopeless, made my heart sank so deep.

累

2010-05-06T23:47:00.002+08:00

大家好！

很久没有跟朋友们联络了，你们好吗？我好想念你们哦！
我嘛，还好啦，就像佩佩说的，要是我们抱怨，别班的人会感到更辛苦。
真的，学姐们说的，真的很准。比起第三年，第二年算得了什么？第二年只是个暖身罢了。
虽然只是第三个星期，可是就可以感觉到很压力了。堆积如山的功课，每天一个接一个。这个还没赶完，另一个就随着而来，根本无法做完。
似乎已好久好久没有好好的休息了。好累哦！在搭车时，虽然是短短的十分钟，我都可以打瞌睡。可见吧？真的很累。佩佩和我都生病了。
可是这些算得了什么？最辛苦的是看到旁人也一样辛苦。每个人都很用功，很努力。有些还需要放学后去打工。这些才是真的很累。就像雷门和佩佩。真的辛苦他们了。
每天都会看到班上有人打瞌睡，不是课太闷，也不是不想听课，只是纯粹的太累了，所以不知不觉就睡着了。
好无奈。看到旁人那么辛苦，自己却什么忙都帮不上。怪自己为何那么容易累垮，为何那么没用？若有更多精力就可以做很多事。好像帮你们的忙，可是真的力不从心。好无奈。对不起。。

请大家多多照顾自己。别像佩佩和我一样哦。。

4月28日

2010-04-28T22:52:00.002+08:00

嗨。。

已经那么久没来这了。有好多好多想写，可是又不知从何说起。

今天试验时，我们喝了很多奇奇怪怪的饮料。很恶心。很想吐。肚子痛。哈哈。
放学后，阿慧来学校找我们。我们一起去吃饭后，跑去试验室帮huihua做点东西。
原本是想跟阿慧，佩佩和莹莹一起出去的，可是因为明天还有课，所以没跟着去。真的好对不起哦。对不起。。以后一定陪你们！希望你们玩得很开心（=

就这样吧，走了。

我真的不想跟你吵架。

关怀方式

2010-04-12T22:37:00.002+08:00

寂寞开在心事旁随手种一些伤感
不让星星来规探找个沉默的夜晚
找个沉默的夜晚不让星星来规探
随手种一些伤感寂寞开在心事旁
我的关怀方式是你无法察觉的悲凉
只能在你不经意时才锁上我心房
你往常的亲切友善是我今生的遗憾
受伤后无悔地埋在不流露的脸上

不知道你了解这首歌的含义吗？
繁琐自己，不让你知道我的心
在你面前不能表现我的心意
只能暗暗哭泣
希望你能理解我的苦辛

2010-04-09T22:10:00.003+08:00

亲爱的日历本，

我真的非常替 weichiang 和 roufang 感到开心，是真的很开心。
我真的很羡慕他们俩，因此也很伤心。
为什么？
为什么别人可以轻易得到他们要的东西？
为什么别人的父母都不反对他们的孩子谈恋爱？
为什么偏偏我不能？
为什么？

没有人会了解那感受。
那心被撕开的感受。
那心跌到谷底的感受。
那咸咸的眼泪要往肚子里吞的感受。
那明明很伤心，可却要表现得若无其事的痛苦。

我真的很希望天下有情人都能终成眷属，可是为什么对我而言会那么辛苦？

勇气

2010-04-04T23:14:00.002+08:00

终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃

如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急更害怕错过你

爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里
你的真心

dream

2010-03-31T21:59:00.002+08:00

had a dream today. a bad one.

its a weird dream. its still fresh in my memory now, but i shall not go into details. its just about someone chasing after me, sort of wanting to cause some harm to me.
i woke up in shock.

and i was paranoid the whole day after that.
something hanging on the window at the opposite block, i thought it was someone stalking me.
i was so paranoid that i was like someone from mental hospital! i was so cautious of my surrounding, and felt that everyone wants to hurt me.
i hate it!

27 march + friends.

2010-03-28T01:57:00.007+08:00

okie okie fang fang, im here to blog le! =D
woahh, its been like some time since i last blogged, and i didnt realise until fang reminded. LOL! sorry lah, been too busy with minesweeper and pool le.. xixixi.. =) i've got so many things to say, but what shall i start with first? hmm.
okie then, my result bah. i passed all modules, thou not so well done, but at least! i passed all, and im so happy bout it! =D so my dudes, thanks for worrying bout me, i am okay! =D

went back to school on wed to pass up our grp's packaging to ms gan.
tada~ our redone packaging! nice marhh? i like it alot =Dhmm. alrightz, my memory isnt too good, so shall just write on what happened today bah.
today went out with my fish and yz.
i went to cut my hair, again. =.='' yea, its not so long since i just last cutted it (think is somewhere after packaging paper?) and yea, i cut it again today.. kinda like my new hairstyle, but abit heartache leahhs! but its ok, hair will grow long sooner or later. ='(
after that, went to shop the bugis street. i was so dumb to be tricked by my yz!! =.='' he today dk eat wrong which medicine, again and again must di siao me! nvm, i shall get my revenge someday on someone else! muahahaha!
its quite late already after we finished shopping, but then yz and fish wanna go meet their friend, so we followed along. and we ended up in the pub. woooo~ its like, my first time in pub lea!! =D but then saw alot of ... there. *cough* you know what i meant.. and its very obvious that my mom and sis dont enjoy themselves. okok larhh, i enjoyed abit by singing to some songs which includes gee, sorry sorry, and 勇气. but i forget to sing 雨爱！T.T nvm.
i stll owe grace her k-box session. actually alot larhhs, grace, gina, mua.. i shall sing 雨爱 the next time, and maybe i can try run devil run.. you better run run run run run.. xixixi..
anw, hey siti and sumi, i heard tt song again! remember our song? =D
so set off from pub back to home at around 12.10am.

so sleepy now, tomorrow still have to wake up early, and go for my religion's meeting. i have to share my testimonial too.. abit scary..shall update on my testimonial again the next time, cos its kinda late le! 2.53am le.. =.=zzz

im starting to miss my friends already. just touching on some, so read on to see if u are mentioned? hehe. im sry if i missed u out larhh.. just drop me a msg in the tagboard and i will mention bout u the next time! =D
liling, hopes everything is going well for you, do take care and rest well, get well soon! we all miss you!
mh, hopes you are enjoying ur crazy time at ur IAP, and u are doing well there.. dont be over crazy lea, later kenar report to ur teacher-in-charge *winks*
py, hopes you earn loads loads $. rest well, dont tire urself.. only left us to chat with each other le ='(
zinc, you mia already, but nvm, i understand. just hope you are still coping well with both ur work. dont overwork urself too much lea, must take care of urself! $ is impt, but health more impt lea! and got any prob must share with us, and hope tt u passed all modules too.
siti, hope u are alright now.. do share with me any prob. and.. move on..
grace, jy for ur IAP, and hopes de***** is of good help to u larhx.. enjoy urself k? lets minesweep again! =D my minesweep genes wanna exercise le larhx!
huihua! dont so stress over ur IAP k? think positive is v impt. i know u dont want to hear all these, but haiyo, i also dont wish to go into old grandma story, makes me so old liddat, but just think positive k? cheer up nehx..
someone, hopes ur sore troat gets better. take care of yourself, drink more water! get well soon.. hope u are enjoying ur chalet.
miss you guys!

i felt rather empty when i knew that i will be alone this weekend..

wishing on a star

2010-03-12T23:26:00.007+08:00

had a long and tiring week.
monday went back to sch for a briefing, which is totally not related to mine, and after that went to Mac with weichiang, roufang, huihua and juinrong. after that, went to tampines with mother.
tuesday, wednesday, thursday and friday was somewhat the same, went to work with mother, except that on wed i went to tampines again.

had been eating and eating non stop these days, and... i gained weight. LOL! serious la! so, huihua, dont keep nagging me already k? i got eat!!!

hmm.. at least i enjoyed myself just now. its so funn! (=
the family of chan's are all so funny, crapy, esp the 4 siblings. but jokers are the oldest and youngest i think..

somehow, i felt empty again whenever i dont get to chat with him..

how long will i have to wait for you to come?
the tears, the stains and my breath
the many days we spent with each other
can it subsist?

in your strange gaze, it was as cold as ice
sometimes i hesitate, but i want to sit
everytime, always defending the day
there is a small dream

sometimes, i made mistakes
like my mind, it wasnt easy
everytime, always defending the day
that was my dream

wishing on a star, to those stars above the clouds
promise me that it wont be long
if someone could listen to me
whoever sees my hapiness hanging

wanna be a star, to be in the sky like those stars
the daylight will shine from that high place
if someone would listen to my songs
thats when i will sing

above, we wont cry; gather the tears
now i will try to laugh
the road i go on, its not easy, but
i'll make my way, i can do it
somedays my dreams will come true
yeah i know

now im wishing on a star

sometimes you just have to let go so you can remember how enjoyable the little things in life can be..

exams over..

2010-03-04T13:20:00.003+08:00

great, exams are over! happy happy, but not so.
i screwed up all my papers.
biotech, nutri, snq, packaging, processing, and amtd.
biotech and packaging are both killers!!
nutri and amtd are considered ok, but just blame my stupid brain for the inability to memorise everything!!
snq, no comments.
processing was rather difficult actually, but thanks to the calculations! thou the calculation is also like abit tricky, but still managed 40%. yea ^ ^ 40% in the pocket, safe safe le.. (=
a good and bad news.. good is, processing module credit point is 5! *clap clap*. bad is, packagina module credit also 5! *slap slap*.
haiz.. i dont dare to look at my result..

exams over, but still not very happy, instead i felt worse.. others are all like so happy and excited about the end of exams and the start of vacation, but its totally different for me. i want to have exam. okie. i know im silly. exam period = i dont want exam. after exam = i want more exams. cause the feeling is like, sort of, dont know what to do after exam! i have nth to do now.. tts why im blogging.
very sian.

to mh and zinc, jiayous for your IAP! (=
to py, lets just work + enjoy our 1 mth plus de holiday.
to someone, please take good care of yourself..
to all, please take care of yourself, have a good rest, and prepare for your IAP and/or FYP.

lao hu year

2010-02-13T23:12:00.003+08:00

looks like i've missed all the fun time together with my classmates. they seemed to have enjoyed themselves so much, and i've missed everything, except their photos.
meihui asked me: 'joanna, actually you can go de ah, why didnt go?'
actually i wanted to join them badly, but there is just a certain reason that is a spoiler.
sorry guys, sorry for being a spoiler (if i ever am..)
hmm, maybe i am just thinking too high of myself? maybe all those who went dont even remember me?
just ignore me, i am very attitude now cause i very sad over not going for the class outing.

a few more minutes, and the tiger is hitting! (looking at huihua)
wishing all a happy lao hu year (=
there will be analysis for each zodiac sign every year, and this year, it says that the sheep will be going through a rather bad year. popularity is bad, health is bad, $ also bad, overall is bad, and at least there is one thing that is good, that is relationship. it says that 桃花 this year is strong, and singles will find a relationship worth continuing, and for those who is married, there is a great possibility of having a baby soon.. =.='' WTH!!

kie i have to intro one song here.

☆★☆ by SNSD.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B6e7TakvWrc

1, 2, 3, again 1, 2, 3

Stars, I'm going crazy

No matter how many times I look at you, I can't see you, oh baby

Because of the tears in my eyes, all because of you

My crying face that is reflecting above the spread letters, oh baby

I promised myself I wouldn't cry again, but I'm crying again

What do I do, I don't know what to do, what to do

This is me, I don't know why I'm going crazy like this

All because of you, really because of you

I can't do anything, I

Love you as much as the stars, stars, stars, stars

I came for you to find you, you're that far shining star

Stars, stars, stars, no matter what I say

I really can't express myself

I'm frustrated now, what should I do now

No matter how many times I count, I can't see the end, oh baby

Because of all the memories that are in my heart, I think of you again

I couldn't say everything I wanted to so I say them to myself, oh baby

I want you back, I want to go back to your side

I'm pleading to you, please, I'm pleading to you

To the sky, my prayer goes to the sky

Cheer me up, cheer me up

Please, where are you now

Stars, stars, stars, stars, talk to me

Is it over? Is that it? Answer me, don't just laugh

Stars, stars, stars, stars, I'm pleading to you

Just for once, my love

Let me fly to your side

Star, star, star, ooh baby, star, star, star, oh

I love you as much as the stars, stars, stars, stars

I came for you to find you, you're that far shining star

Stars, stars, stars, no matter what I say

I really can't express myself

I'm frustrated now, what should I do now

project 3 exhibition

2010-02-03T23:32:00.007+08:00

had our project 3 exhibition today..
was rather fun and enjoyable, but most importantly, we completed one project! (=

here are some photos taken today

contrast! one is so nicely decorated (sam's grp) and one is =.=

sam's group de decoration

afterall, i enjoyed myself today.. especially interaction with TSK.. (=

hope our product is a success, and hope that we will get high score (=

week 16..

2010-01-31T12:58:00.005+08:00

hello people, just some random updates (=

been so busy this week! i nv fail to sleep after 2am everyday, from monday to saturday. so hope that today, sunday, i can have an early night, thou rather impossible cos i need to rush through the ppt..

went to sumo house with liling, meihui, ziying and peiyee on thursday for lunch (=
tot of taking bus there initially, but ended up taking cab. shall not explain why, if not i will be dead! hahaha. xD had mine KOI's oolong milk tea, which is v v v nice <3>

as for friday, the 5 of us went to the cafe in the library, and did our FPP report there. after tt, i went to find sumi and huihua to do the report for amfs. after completing, huihua say tt she suddenly feel like singing, and we went to one empty lecture hall and we blast the music and search for lyric, and, we start our cheapo kpop (=there.. our cheapo kbox (=
sang many songs like: i wanna be with you, 理想情人, 雨爱, 倒带, 关怀方式, 123木头人, because of you.. etc etc.. mani mani.. (= and first time i heard huihua sing, and thou not first time i heard jr sing, its still (=
i enjoyed myself in our cheapo kbox thou (= we promised to go sing sing occasionally, so anyone interested to join in? xD.

kie heres my update for the next week..
monday: practise speech + ppt
tuesday: presentation for HACCP and yoghurt preparation
wednesday: yoghurt preparation + exhibition
thursday: FPP presentation
friday: meet up with my sec school friend
lucky our FPP almost done le.. is HACCP left that is draining everyone!

things that i need:
1) sleep
2) take care of my gastric
3) finish up all projects! its the cause of my number one and two, i supposed..

i gotta feeling, that next week's gonna be a bad bad week.. =( zzz

认错

2010-01-25T01:54:00.005+08:00

I hurt someone badly today
I dont know if this post is seen by that intended person, I just wanted to say..

认错
I don't believe it
是我放弃了你
只为一个没有理由的决定
以为这次我可以
承受你离我而去
不必让你伤心
却刺痛自己
一个人走在傍晚七点的台北City
等着心痛就像黑夜一样的来临
I hate myself
又整夜追逐梦中的你
而明天只剩哭泣的心

怎么才能让我告诉你我不愿意
教彼此都在孤独里忍住伤心
我又怎么告诉你我还爱你
是我自己错误的决定

我要告诉你斥我不愿意
教彼此都在孤独里忍住伤心
我又怎么告诉你我还爱你
是我自己错误的决定

Im sorry

auditing

2010-01-22T22:48:00.002+08:00

today saw a korean lady in N5 after our tutorial class. and i spoke in korean to her! so embarrassing arh, cos my korean is only like -.- and pronouncation is even =.= time to brush up on my korean!
after school, went break with sumi, siti, jessie, rf and nicholas. we gossiped smth randomssss..
went to do the S&Q auditing with sumi after that. spent more than a hour in each store, luckily the stores we are located to is so near my house. (= and poor sumi have to go all the way back to amk. after the 2 audits, we went to the KFC in northpoint and discuss and complete our worksheets. so we went home at around 7pm.
its a tiring day, but definitely a wonderful and enjoyable one rite, sumi?
gosh.. i felt tt i eat alot! morning ate breakfast with py, after sch ate lunch with sumi they all, then after audit ate KFC with sumi, and came home i felt so bloated tt i feel like vomiting. but my mother!! forced me to eat horfun. i told her i dont want but she insist.. =.= i ate a little only, then left the remainings to her. now i am feeling damn bloated!
theres just too much work needed to be completed, and not much time left! i still cant concentrate! how how how??... i am worried abt smth..
i need more concentration!

to someone, get well soon! =)

nothings gonna change my love for you

2010-01-17T16:11:00.003+08:00

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

If the road ahead is not so easy,
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too

Our dreams are young
And we both know they'll take us
Where we want to go

Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

伤心

2010-01-16T15:30:00.001+08:00

我真的很伤心

insane

2010-01-11T21:59:00.003+08:00

im insane.

but im contented

=)

and if i'm dreaming
please don't wake me up
'cause i'd go INSANE
without you near me
and while you're sleeping
i'm still standing up
'cause i'd go INSANE
without you near me

one to ten

2010-01-05T16:14:00.009+08:00

hello all, im here to blog again =D

its been 2 days since school reopens, and lots of homework to be done! biotech journal, packaging journal, pnp report (red apple), still got alot alot alot.. im lost in the pile of work mann..

and damn stupid thing is that we have to help up in our school's open house. and i kenar the 'make ur own sandwich' ahahhaha. but im lucky tt i am working morning shift (10-1pm) and I DONT HAVE TO COME BACK TO SCHOOL ON SAT FOR MY SHIFT! hahaha. purposely typed this out in caps, just to annoy SOMEONE! xD

hmm..was staying back in school yesterday doing the video thingy, but i wasnt doing, i was playing and fooling around while sumi and siti were working! so sorry girls! and JR gave me a pressie (=

thanks so much! i likeee :D
bought from more than words..
and the carrier was: (read it yourself) hehehehe ^ ^
and thanks for giving me this cute cute tommy, the wrapper, the carrier, and the receipt.. i know how much liao! woahh. not cheap lea.. i'll help you sew your pocket one day. ^ ^

today also stayed back in school, actually for amtd video, but i dont know what im doing, maybe just slacking around again =.=
but im contented today =)

here are some of the pictures we took in south canteen today.

fala and me~

ICHI! poking really hard haha

NI!

SAN! spectacles..

YON! 2+2=4

GO! sorry uh sorry uhhs~

ROKU! ring ring ring~

NANA! its me ^ ^ jessie fierce! =x

HACHI! im smoking, fala is shooting, and jessie is acting ganster

KYUU! 3x3=9 =)

JYUU! jessie is so cute rite? (sure alot ppl queue outside her house)

middles..

fierce aint i?

vulgur!

happy days together =)

COUNTDOWN 2010

2010-01-02T16:01:00.007+08:00

i was in sch doing project with siti and sumi on new year eve.. cool isnt it? =.=''
i was very sad that i wasnt able to make it for the countdown with him.. =( i wanted to go badly! but my mom is a great hurdle for us. she agreed to let me go, but reluctantly. can see from her expression that she disallow. and because of this, i was mad at her for days, and purposely doing the opposite from what she told me to. bad rite? but still, after doing so much, i still wasnt grant the freedom to go.. sad! =( and im really sry
but went to countdown with my aunt though..its so damn boring at the beginning. all the ppl there are stranger to us. and one of them keeps holding on to the mic and sing =.= and drink..
so bored. ppl there seemed to be enjoying, singing and drinking =.= i went for this sort of entertainment, yes, but i didnt get a chance to taste alcoholic drink! =( was so bored that i'd rather go countdown with him lahs!
but when 12am strikes, everyone starts to get high, even my mom and sis.. and i get total crazy! people starts to get drunk and the 3 of us are still clear =.=''

this girl here, definitely can drink. =.=''

this is just another pic we took with one of the guys.

we took lots of picture there, but i just upload these few first. no time =(
yea yea i know im a xmas tree! (stare at jr)

well, hope all had a wonderful new year day =)
Happy new year 2010!

goodbyes to 2009 and hello to 2010

2009-12-30T13:37:00.002+08:00

dear diary

year 2009 is ending soon.
its sort of a tedious year as many things had went on in this year. its really a tedious year.. a lot. meeting loads of people who changed my life, and spending loads of money, and i felt that i've grown a little through these, hopefully?
well, there aren't many things that i've done in this year.
i only remembered doing loads and loads of projects and reports, all school works. moving, playing, all all sort of randoms..

2010 is coming soon, and i have some new year resolutions:
1) good health and absolute happiness of all individuals
2) all ice creams to show keen improvements in their studies
3) FREEDOM!
4) world peace
the list is not exhaustive thou.. haahah! im greedy!

hmm.. i wanna go countdown with him! but.. i just dont know if my mummy allow or not.. really hope that she allows. i really wished to go!

goodbyes to 2009, and hello to 2010!

fatso

2009-12-27T02:15:00.004+08:00

gosh
i am getting fatter and fatter!
how am i going to slim down when i am tempted with so many delights?!
T.T
i am getting so fat that even myself start to feel hopeless abt it..
im a fatso...
>.<
help me help me!
i need to lose pounds!!

anw, just to update my activity on xmas, i didnt went clubbing nor k due to poor health conditions.. T.T such a waste! didnt get alcoholic drink as well.. i didnt go shopping with friends T.T didnt blurt out what i wanted T.T
hadnt had a great xmas..
went to IKEA with family instead, and spent about 300 bucks =.= so sian k? i am just randoming ard when my friends are all having fun!! >.<
and at midnight, my aunt's friend brought pizza up for us as supper. actually is ok, but MIDNIGHT! lol. was watching absolute bf while eating pizza. absolute bf very niceeee (=
and slept at ard 2.45am..
=.=

and today, my aunt brought us to bottle tree and we ate there. woahh! spent 113 bucks just on some dishes, which includes omlette, vege, sotong, fish and crab!! xD see lah? how am i going to slim down lah? =.=''

sian. i am feeling rotten now. my troat is killing me. and my coughing is getting worser.. and my skin is getting from bad to worse.. >.< i am going to die soon.. i cant even speak properly without breaking my voice. and it hurts whenever i speak.. haiz.... =.=
wondering how i am going to survive on mon?

just for ur info, its 2.44am now and i still dont want to sleep. i need to wake up by 7.30am later.. =.='' i know i should go now, but i think im suffering from insomnia..

merry christmas!

2009-12-24T15:55:00.002+08:00

its gonna be christmas again!
...
i want to get myself a pair of earing, and i saving up ^ ^
but i think, from how well i know myself, i might end up spending everything again xD
actually, im rather contented with what i have for now already but..theres something i'd always want: freedom.

i want to enjoy myself this christmas!!
i want to go clubbing!
i want to get alcoholic drink!
i want to be as drunk as possible!
but, i dont think possible lea.. cause my sis and i arent feeling well, so my mom wont allow us to go out.. >.<''
i want to go shopping with our classmates.. T.T
i want to go clubbing T.T
hopefully i can blurt out what i really want after im drunk, but, like what weichiang says, there are only 2 consequences:
1) mom's consent
2) home 'tutorial' and its the end of everything.
in my case, (2) is much possible.. T.T
so..to take the risk or not?
better not i think..
T.T

rightz, merry xmas to all!

sign

2009-12-18T23:57:00.002+08:00

recently fell in love with this song: sign-BEG
thou its some sort of dance song, its quite sad..

http://www.jpopasia.com/lyrics/34274/brown-eyed-girls/sign.html

sumi gapa mayday dot~
mami apa mayday dot~
shiganeun tto tic toc
heulroman ga tic toc
teulrini nae sign sign dot~

english translation:
cant breathe, its a mayday dot~
heart hurts, its a mayday dot~
time goes tic toc
and flies by tic toc
can you hear my sign sign dot~

please just look at me for one last time
i once shined but now i am different
and i couldnt say anything

its me, the one who's crying like a fool
im in the dark room all day and all night and its not alright
why cant you understand my heart?

my heart tightens as time passes
my eyes squeezing tears out
im scared tt this is the end, so please save me

Do you know how I feel and I've confessed countless times
And the love sign I gave you. Did you get my sign? sign?
I need you to get back up. Without you I have worry syndrome.
Don't neglect me, I want you by my side, side

Your memories within me and I hold my breath and endure it.
Please, you know I will crumble without you

Shivering lips and my heart which won't last much
And I'm too scared that it might stop, so please save me.

please save me..

CTs over!

2009-12-18T13:27:00.004+08:00

hehehehehe..finally! its the end of CTs liaos...
im free!!! (doing 'free' labour the first thing after CTs..isnt tt great?)
and i finally can enjoy!!!
things to do when i get home: PLAY! SLEEP!
i've quit my computer for a week already! (well, actually, for those who knows me, im online sometimes lah hahahaha)
and im seriously lack of sleep ='(
blahblahblah (=

thou holiday, still have many work to do..so no slacking -.-
(as if i will keep my promise?)

i wanted to get a part time job soon.
but its difficult to find one tt only wants to hire 2 weeks.

actually, the CTs, i have no confidence in any at all..
snq still ok lah..
preservation is a die..
biotech no need say -.-
processing still okok lah..
amtd is worst!
i conclude tt i wont pass this CTs...

hate myself hate myself...
why am i so stupid? =.=

误会

2009-12-10T20:53:00.004+08:00

我不明白，为什么一点点小误会既然会变成这样？
朋友，只不过是场小误会，别让这种误会把我们的友谊给摇晃了！
不值得，不值得啊！

stupid me

2009-12-07T17:01:00.003+08:00

dear diary,
actually, i dont really know what is happening to me these days. i was just like a walking zombie..i dont know what i am doing, and i dont even know what i am thinking about.

ok.. i am so sorry to my friends.
i admit i was very emotional this morning, and i dont feel like talking much.
i was feeling very unwell during break, and feel like vomitting. though it usually happen to me this semester, i dont know why the feeling today is so strong that i cant really tarhan. i even have to force myself to control.
a bowl of noodle in front of me, and i harldy touched it. okay. i know that i dont know how to take care of myself. later my gastric pain again, its my own fault..
then also dont know what i am thinking about, i went to lock my phone. it ended up locked, but i dont know how to unlock -.-''. so we went to causeway point and asked singtel to unlock my phone. i was happy already, then i itchy hand went to lock again, and end up have to go and ask for help again..lol. so, thats how i spent my afternoon.. =(

felt that i might fall ill very soon. body abit warm warm de, then headache and dizzy.. =(

you know, it hurts me when i saw you in such a pain..

new moon outing

2009-12-04T17:58:00.004+08:00

today went out after school with our classmates to watch new moon. we caught the 1pm de, but mr tay.. -.-'' you all know lar harh..always like to 'hold us back' one.. so was kind of 'late' for the movie, but at least didnt miss the starting..
bought nachos combo. the nachos was like -.-'' nt as good as last time i had them..but nvm (=
jessie wasnt feeling very well today thou. take cares!

woahh! had been waititng for the launch of this movie to S'pore for so long lah!! and now finally!!
uh. i felt tt the characters in twilight looks better ehh haaha xD. and i prefer the edward cullen in the book rather than the one in the movie..
hmm. there hasnt been really much appearance of jacob in the movie as compared to the book thou..but its ok! cos i like edward better. edward is so handsome xD
overall, the movie was nice(= but the book was nicer hahah.

actually i was sitting beside zinc and peggy de, but dk why they changed my seat with wc, and i ended up sitting with sumi and jr. ahh! i know already. cos maybe is wc wanna sit with rf, tts why.. (=
after the movie, actually we all planned to go for lunch cum high tea de, but peggy was in a rush to go for her piano lesson, so she and zinc left. i wanna follow them de, but they dont allow me to go. they wanted me to go lunch instead -.-'' am i such a light bulb to disturb the romance of the two of you? lol.. anw, i still had a chance to leave after they left haha. so i didnt go makan with the rest..

overall, the trip was a pleasant one. had fun and enjoyed my day today =)
hopes all enjoyed their day as well =D

WHY

2009-11-28T14:51:00.006+08:00

why cant you be a gentleman? there's already nth between you and me.
why cant you just let me go?
why cant you just let go?
why cant you just go?
why must you still pester us when you'd already gotten your money?
why must you clinge onto me and my family?
why must you make such a big embarrassment out of yourself?
why must you make me so embarrassed?
why must you be such a irritating pest?
why must you make a fool out of yourself?
why dont let me peace?
why have you to make me feel so lousy?
why must you make me so miserable?
why must you make me so vexed?
why must you sprinkle salt on my wound?
why must i have a ...
WHY?!

JUST WHAT MUST I DO TO MAKE YOU LEAVE?! YOU IDIOT!

my heart is aching..
is really bleeding this time

randomness

2009-11-25T19:53:00.006+08:00

arh!! havent been posting for a while cos im just soooooo damn busy with sch work, and many other things..
projects, reports, tutorials...projects, reports, tutorials, and still projects, reports and tutorials..my life just simply revolve ard these..
im just so damn exhausted arh!!

anw, heres some random pics hahaha xD.
sep and nov babies's bday celebration

our class photo..theres alot! but i only picked 2..

formal

formal + a little fun (=

videoing the amtd project

my cute grand daughter. so cute~

its me wearing my grand daughter's big spects. hahaha xD

nice?

kenar bluff by ziying and peiyee de.. =.=
anw, jr, thanks uhs~

theres no nutri tut on mon, but i stayed back with wc, rf and grace, and we chit chat abit and gossip alot! xD.
*looking at grace, jessie and rf* xDD. X嫂s.. ^ ^
actually i didnt plan to stay back, but grace ask me sit down and chit-chat de..so, i stay lor, and we stayed till like 6pm in south canteen just to wait for jr. we kept phoning him and he didnt pick up his phone -.-'' and finally when he picked up, he says he's nt done yet =.='' and maybe going home at 9pm.. woahh diao. nvm, just take it as a language exchange cum gossips session bah!
anw, this is one of the pics taken by me in the discussion rm..

caption is weichiang!!! xD.

theres still alot of pics, but i think upload the next time cos i need to rush my work now!!!

aja aja hwaiting!

不值得

2009-11-09T15:26:00.006+08:00

除了想你
除了爱你
我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记
整理心情
我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心
无力继续

这感情
不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
这段感情
早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而灰了心
为你而放弃爱情
放弃爱你

crying

2009-11-03T22:48:00.003+08:00

i dont know why i am crying ever since yesterday..
even when im playing games,
even sobbing when im lying on bed,
and the moment i woke up, i just feel like crying again..
walking alone to the mrt,
boarding the mrt,
reading new moon,
buying dinner..
even now..
all these should seem normal enough, yet, my eyes are wet..
the feelings just cant seem to stop. the tears doesnt seem to stop. it just doesnt seem to stop! everything doesnt seem to stop! they just wont let me peace down!!!
wats worst of the worst is, i dont know wats wrong!!

rainy

2009-11-02T21:12:00.002+08:00

today's weather is just like my mood..rainy..

was rather down today..partly because i wasnt feeling very well. but i didnt tell the so called 'true' reason cos i dont want my friends to worry too much.

its raining lightly when its finally time to go home..it was about 7pm in the evening when i was walking home..i was carrying an umbrella over me when i saw a rather old woman pushing a trolley of paper boxes waiting for the traffic to turn red.. dont know why, i suddenly walked towards her and sheltered my umbrella over her. felt alot thou its just a short journey..

well, at least i felt chatting with grace rather enjoyable today. (= had chatted with her regards tv dramas, and we spent most of the pract's time chatting over just tv dramas hahaaha xD.

was rather upset over something, but.... what else can i do? ....
lets just hope that tomorrow will be a better day..
aja aja-hwaiting!!!! =D.

specially posted for weichiang

2009-10-30T21:38:00.000+08:00

specially posted for weichiang..
hey dont say i didnt update hor!!!
i purposely typed a post and changed the skin hor !!!
>.<

辛酸

2009-10-16T23:10:00.001+08:00

我很感动，真的真的很感动
同时也感到非常辛酸

2009-09-21T19:33:00.005+08:00

been playing ard with korean language these few days ^ ^ typing and learning typing and learning ahahaha ^ ^ this is my name : 조안나 (=

saturday
boring. stayed at home to pack pack. guai hor?

sunday
went to my small fish's house to slack. hee. (=
had my 'makeover' tt day.
my small fish helped my mom, sis and i dye our hair. my sis's first time is granted to my small fish wahahahaha xD.
my mom's like no difference.
my sis got abit colour under the light.
mine's the blond-est one. no nid light hahaha xD.
they keep saying very blond. (but i like <3)
its very nice kay!! <3
had my nails painted BLACK as well, and its just soooooooo damn cool! here's some photos of my 'makeover' ^ ^

my hair...erm. its lighter then this..

BLACK! <3

today
went to my sis's boss's daughter's one mth old celebration. saw my 'ex-boss' there and he said tt i look sort of familiar, and my sis's boss said tt he cant recognise me. =.='' did i really change alot? lol. its just cos of my hair and my formal dressing today only mah!... =.=''

had enjoyed the weekend much much. long long time no like tt de enjoy liao ^ ^
kay, hope to have more fun fun this holiday..

sign off, 조안나

what could happen when you got bored.

2009-09-08T12:49:00.001+08:00

boring Boring BORING !!
its indeed boring...... nth to do since the exam ends ehhs. -.-zZzZzz..
no studies, no sch, no leisure, no one for me to bully (thinking of ahhui), no job.. very very sian lea!
i miss my sch.
i miss my books.
i miss my notes.
i miss my friends.
i miss my teachers.
i miss the labs.
i miss the leccture halls.
i miss everything.
i miss my pillow.. hahaha xD. no lah. joking only..

the online games arent fun..bored of them all already. online videos are so-so the same (cos i keep looking at videos of the same songs). gossips are also not very interesting nowadays..very sian sian sian..
the only leisure was the 8-10pm de fm96.3, but it is boring sometimes...
you can see from the way i wrote my post here, you can tell tt im very sian rite? indeed, im very sian. those who cant tell hor..read the following pls..
(only those clever ones can tell)
hahah xD. no lah joking only, no offence arh.

actually today wanna follow zinc for job hunting de..but but (i didnt stammer), i have to bring my mom to the clinic today so...TOO BAD! >.<
i seriously need a job, if not i will die of rotting at home.
i need a job.
i need a job.
i need a job.
i need a job.
i need a job.
i need a job.
i need a job.
i need a job.
i need a job.
i need a job.
i need a job.
i need a job.
i need a job.
i need a job.
i need a job.
hey how come i am spamming my own blog siah? =.=''

okie, since im so bored, lemmi get sth done here. my wish list!
I WISH, I WISH..
1) pass all the papers this sem.
2) pass Fmicro.
3) pass HBI.
4) pass IFS.
5) pass Fmarketing.
6) pass UOP.
7) pass proj2.
8) get a job soon (hopefully within two wks).
9) earn loads loads $$.
10) get sth to keep me occupied.
11) i also dk liao..
12) pink health of everyone.
13) happiness of everyone.
14) good fortune.
15) lets pass our sem together! =D.

kayy, tts abt it. hahahaha xD. kay lah bear with me lah, i know i very stupid !

awwuuu. so hungry now, havent eaten my breakfast nor lunch. =.='' nth to eat either. i shall have lamb chop done soon bah.
*slicing my own flesh*

kay lah kay lah i really stop liao, if not i think not only those who read this, i will also kill myself.
(i am already immortal)
*cunning laughters*

sign off,
nana.

好想好好爱你

2009-08-28T21:51:00.000+08:00

好想好好爱你
这一句话只能藏成秘密
关上窗外的雨
反覆碰触你爱过的痕迹
好想好好爱你
却没有权利再把你抱紧
从今以后如果你能快乐
就别管我想你

2009-08-15T00:19:00.000+08:00

Hello!
hadnt post anything for such a long time. like almost 2 mths. actually got loads of things tt i wanna post, but im just sooooooooooo lazy x10000 and time constrain too..so after many many opportunities, i've finally managed to grab this and post something! hahaha xD
hmm i see tt blogger has changed its format or is it because of some technical problems?

first of all, i wish to send my dept of gratitude to ms huihua san! thx for teaching me unit op!! i realli appreciate it and had learned alot thro the coaching just now. thanks so much to you. the knowledge you've given me cant be expressed by just saying thank you ehh. but i still want to say thanks! arigatou!~ =D.

next is meihui! take note here! no matter what happen, we will be here for you de, so you dont have to hide your feelings from us. what are friends for? jiayous! gambatte! 행운을 빕니다!

yea, finally done with all projects and all reports (except for one project2 report due on the first day of our exam. but! but! exams are coming in just a week! >.<'' have not even start on revising. how great?! haiis. i felt tt im a lousy student ehh.

*yawn* realli so damn damn tired arh! slept at 10.30 yesterday thus didnt study for the ct today. didnt study at all. great uh? realli cant concentrate on studying the unit op arh! i slept on my study table =.='' i decided to set my alarm at 4.30am today to crawl up to study, and it ended up tt someone off my alarm! and, =.='' i slept all the way till 7 in the morning =.='' haiis. and i finally know who the culprit liao! my sis!! thanks arh to my dearest sis!~ -.-''
i dont understand. its just a day tt i slept at 4.30am, and why would i feel so tired?! maybe i shouldn't do this the next time. i wanna set a rule to sleep at the lastest one pass midnight! no more than that? hopefully!!

hmm. i think i should cage myself at home for the next week to really piahh my studies, ritee? hope tt this study week can be useful to me ^ ^

yep. today went to my mom's friend's hse today after school. its kinda boring ehh. maybe is my sleepiness or my moodiness affects my mood of the trip? but hinestly speaking, i felt this boring!

maybe i shld start to upload pictures here! my blog is kinda boring ehh! need pictures pictures pictures! hahaha xD

maybe going out tmr again. when can i get my beauty sleep?!!!

i think i going sick soon. having major headache, and drownziness.. maybe i kenar from peiyee lorh ( who got it from meihui? )..
i seriously need plenty of rest and sleep! hope i can sleep for 24 hrs to 'refill' my energy bank.

lastly to everyone, lets work hard for our exam kayy? 행운을 빕니다!!!!

signed off,
jo.

2009-06-27T22:40:00.002+08:00

=.='' you waited all the way from morning till evening? i tot i told you tt i wont be online so early mehx? hahahaha xD nvm, i know you have loads of time and patience. hahahha! lolx! but you realli abit dumb lea, you finish ur studies liao mehx? and dont you even take care of ur health? haiis. =.=

uh. today went 'hunting' the whole afternoon. of cos hunting occurs in some 'quieter' places larhs. hahhaha! why this sounds sth like twilight? lolx. anw, hunted 5 preys, and realise tt 1 of them is sth tt we 'liked'. well, not tt sort where realli love larhs, but still rather acceptable larhs, as compared to the rest, at least? (mai hiam dio ho la).
wow. having great headache and felt so giddy while hunting. almost vomitted. ate 3 sweets in attempt to stop the giddiness, but failed to. =.='' well, maybe i'll get used to hunting when time goes by..
hmm. today's hunting is rather fruitful thou.

yepp, and one more thing, happy birthday wendy jie, TANJIOBI OMETETO! =DD

2009-06-20T17:21:00.002+08:00

你难道不觉得你很自私吗？
你到底有没有顾虑到我的感受？
是啊，我是笨。可是要说难听一点，我是没有你们那么阴险狡猾。
我是没家教。在这世界上，最有家教的就是你们了，我怎么比得上？因为我没钱！
你 father 有病？拜托! 别再装了!
你根本不关心我!